I have nobody in this life that loves me I have six brothers two sisters they all hate me I passed out because I couldn't breathe to go to the emergency they had to shock me back to life my neighbor was my friend she watch my dog cat fish.for 6 days and when I got out my SSI card with to wrong address sorry my phone got turned off and now she hates me everything I do is wrong I can't find a job I'm too old only 56 I can't even get over my ex wife that was 15 years ago even my sons hate me.
Thursday, September 18 2014
I failed at life. I did. I dint get into med school and it was my most precious dream... i worked so hard... people look at me like i am the biggest failure on earth like i dont have a chance and i feel like it ... i am so crushed... my mom cant afford tutoring and i am drained both mentaly and phisically... i got into college to do something i dont like ... i am afraid of not passing the exams... everything i had done to this day was for the moment i was going to be a doctor.. it might never happen... it's the most awful feeling in the world...
Wednesday, September 17 2014
I'm a gamer and I love to game on a computer and I do it a lot. I get all As and Bs in school and run cross country but to my parents I'm a massive fuck up. I don't know if I actually am a failure but I sure as hell feel like it.
I will be jobless and will encounter financial problems. I'm not able to do something useful, since i never ever had a job nor experience in any field of expertise. Basically, I'm born to be useless. I'm even to stupid to kill myself. I will starve to death, probably fitting to what i deserve.
I feel like I did the wrong things and made wrong life decisions and now I put my two little daughters and my wife in a bad situation. I don't wanna die, but it feels like I'm dead inside.
Had a terrible year last year... classes got screwed up, poor relationships with God and people. I was not looked fondly upon by staff/professors at my school, people in my future possible workplace, nor did students take kindly to me either.I tried as hard as I could to get my life together and start my new year off right. Ended up screwing up again and continued having an even worst school year. Summer came, kept making mistakes.Then this school year came by and I was ready to make things right and try my absolute hardest to pursue God and truth. Things were going great till I screwed up again and ruined everything I had going for me.Now I'm just depressed and struggling to just get by, paying thousands of dollars for schooling to live a life of mediocrity because I keep screwing up my opportunities. I was actually beginning to love my school and have a great year till I screwed it all up.
Hey i'm feeling so lonely. I've nobody to talk to. To chat with. I've lost many friends. Nobody initiates conversations with me. Can't study. Engineering is so tough to me. Feeling hopeless. Feeling ugly. So lonely. So hopeless. Not doing well in exams. Can't concentrate on studies. I don't know what. I fail at life.
Tuesday, September 16 2014
I failed 3 engineering courses last semester in college. I might not even get financial aid. All my friends are in engineering advancing in their classes. I might be janitor while my friends are making 6 figures. Man my sucks right now. What is the point of living in civilization. I just like going to live in the wilderness with wild animals where there is no worries of bills, and other problems.
Monday, September 15 2014
Ah and I decided to not wait for my daughter to call me or want to be with me today this morning after praying and having as little run at the beach decided to gather her presents I got for her in my trio and gave them to her. We hen as he saw me coming into her job she smiled and was kind. I talked to her for a little bit only but she had a bug smile and said that after work maybe she would hang out with me. I don't know how but praying always works and I will keep in trusting God to help me every day I might be considered A failure at work but with God I'm more than as conquerer and I know in my heart that everything will work out well at the end because I love God and Jesus and God loves me. He has shown it by giving up His only son Jesus on the cross for me. My soul is worth his precious blood there fore I am worthy and you are worthy cheer up there's hope in Jesus Christ.
I say just trust your heavy burdens on Him who loves you. I almost forgot all about his grace his love and his promise to be there if you call upon His name. I truly felt so low yesterday I cried and cried and today when I remembered that scripture I know that asking him to help me, opening my heart to Him will work because God is true Jesus is true he is close and near if you call upon Him. If you are feeling like giving up just give yourself a chance to be accepted loved and put all your burdens in His hands just ask Him to help you carry them even if you have nog prayed before just open your lips and ask He will give you rest and peace .
I came back today because yesterday was feeling awful and wanting to entertain the idea of not being in this world as an alternative.this morning felt better. Yesterday after admitting here how I felt as a failure and so exhausted I remembered the scripture that Jesus said come to me all those who are weary and laboured that I will give you rest. As I walked on the beach this morning I felt much better and listened to some scriptures in this app in iTunes or Apple called NT ( meaning New testament) and the OT what stands for Old testament. This apps helped me before to go through the bible very quickly a few yeArs ago. 4 years ago.IT changed my life listening to the Scriptures daily. Today I remembered that what Jesus said and fave me great comfort. I know that everything works for the good of those who love the Lord. Jesus says come to me all those who are weary and hard laboured. That includes me and you in this forum. Meaning trust our burdens to Him Jesus. He also said that we shouldn't worry about tomorrow because every day brings its own toil. To trust God to give and provide everything we need because even the birds are fed daily and how much more our Heavenly father wants to give us his children who believe in Him. That comforted my soul and no I don't need to kill myself to rest the only thing I need is to give up my burdens st the cross of Jesus and let Him renew my soul. Let him give me rest. He was rejected . He was despised. He was oppressed and bullied, and he was mocked, he was spitten, he was abused, he suffered, he also was hungry and tired and killed. He knows all about feeling as a failure in this world BUT he overcame death and he had victory over all of those who hurt him, he resurrected, he is risen and he loves all those who feel weak and tired and lonely because he knows all about that he suffered it too. And he through his grace and unending love can help us overcome our weakness because where we are weak he is strong.
I am.from india and 19 yrs old boy I take admission in engineering as i am very passionate about.but bcoz of mathematics I quit engineering and Do Bsc Agri Bio Tech how, fool I am,I dissapointed my parents.my all friends do engineering and .I fool do Bio-Tech but atleast I am happy now.but sometimes I think that,the course I choose have not much value but I like biology but I am not talented.
Saturday, September 13 2014
And I don't have one true friend at all in this country just the people I randomly meet at church and the people at bible study who don't know how deeply hurt I am and how much of as failure in life I feel. I came to this country to become a doctor to take the boards 15 years ago and I never did. Why? Because I was a single Mon we both a small 7 year old child. I had to work and pay rent and all the stuff of . Living in the US and didn't qualify for any help. Got married with an emotionally abusive person that ended in divorce and me and my girl struggling to survive. I am a doctor in my country but here had no education I went to school even though I was depressed and alone just my little one. And became a CNA worked then I was so as angry at life and stupid politics of phillipino coworkers got fired then looked for another job got into mental health work and loved it. But couldn't save MONEY to take my medical boards too expensive TO live here. Then enrrolled in nursing school Graduated from associates didnt want to get a bachelor's because i already had one and a masters in my country and didnt really liked nursing but because of the money i could earn to save to take my boards as nd be a doctor here but I didn't count on the nastiness of my fellow nurses co workers ever envious OF I don't know what and MADE my work life impossible complaining of me until the bossess fired me in every nursing job i had gotten in the US. Never ABLE to save money FOR my boards because always needed TO MAKE sure my daughter had a safe place TO live and food. The years passed and didn't TAKE MY medical board's. Now my daughter stArted drinking using pot at 14-15 I became deeply depressed and quit my job to be ABLE to spend time with her and make sure she got out of that and she did thankfully stopped using pot but one day the police called me at work because my 17 year old d as daughter had been admitted with as alcohol poisoning I was so angry with her because she was cynical as bout it.we moved I stopped working as much to be with her more and we struggled for money but she got better. But then she starting to be with guys coming home late etc which was very worrisome and kept . Me awake at night and very tired to go to work at 6 am next morning which affected my mental focus I suppose. And it was like that for a couple of years with some improvement and Setbacks. Then she got worse and I moved with her to Los Angeles to keep her from her friends who I thought then had as bad influence on her. Then I was was in such anxiety about her that I was late at work sometimes and snappy tired etc.I had been fired from my previous job because I was unable to make an assignment very far away from home. T hen I got that job in LA but had my 18 year old DAUGHTER with me. And I had not being able to pay the new car monthly payment for 4 months so it got repossessed and we were stranded in LA like that so couldn't make it to work on time and got fired. So we came back home but didn't have an apartment anymore and she stayed with her alcoholic friend and as he got a job and I stayed with church friend and got another temporary job saved money and got anew apartment together. Then I was fired for I don't know what oh yeah because I didn't have a car and they found out. I had to take the trolley. So I was in unemployment thankfully for almost one year until I decided that with God's help I could do it. Meanwhile my daughter got in church and she was happier and better I was able to be st peace AND kept my job for just 2 months because the medic as l assistants got into hating me because I was a doctor in my country! Dogs.so I was once more without job by now it started to affect me emtionallyh finally and becam insecure and untrusty of people at work. Meanwhile my daughter was IN college and met this black dude, another one, that basically pulled her slowly but surely out of church and she started to act out again rebellious, being late or even not coming back and sexually as active with him and drinking again after he cheated on her and broke her heart. Then same thing I became unfocused and Anxious and lost my job again, got another one . But just being able to hold it for 5-6 months each and got a super good job who a couple of other nurses got t he pleasure to rip away from me with their constant bullying me around. But this time I defended myself. Eventually found a well paid job and at this time mg daughter had become involved with someone else not coming back home, drinking, and using birth control pills we both this new guy and then she moved out with her friends because she didn't want to be told anything and eventually with this new guy into a room studio and I just fell apart because she wouldn't want to go to church or even the guy is a believer but my daughter whom I love so much became increasingly cold with me and now she wouldn't talk to me of call or anything and I eventually got fired as g as in from my no as t recent job because I was one minute late. Again after 3 warnings. Of course they didn't know my struggle with my daughter. She now lives with her boyfriend that appears to be pretty selfish but loves her in his own way. He has no mom since childhood and seems to want to keep my daughter away from me. They both recently joined to sue the company that they worked for a few years for sexual harassment which as he never said to me anything anyone doing such thing to my dear daughter, and UNPaid time. They got PAYMENT for it winning and my daughter feels totally like as she needs No one even God b ed cause she got this boyfriend. I now feel very sad and hurt because my only daughter just rather not be around me even calling me. She kindly gave me an ipad for my birthday but she won't answer face time or messages. Because she says as he is too busy with school work the boyfriend and her new dog and cats.me I'm about to start a new job on Monday. I turned 50 last days of August.I don't know what is coming in the future but I feel pretty tired already. I can't take more of the same I need a way out of all this failed work life, mom-daughter life, I just need my daughter healthy close to Jesus and living a healthy lifestyle and her love. And a job to support the basic life necessities and the ability emotional and mentally to hold it in order to stabilize financially and stop struggling to even pay rent and the needed stuff. I am exhausted. Can this get better?
Ah also decided a few years ago that I wanted to be pure sexually since before I had my share of failed relationships in the sense of feeling fulfilled emotionally but felt used sexually by the people I engaged myself with maybe due to low self-esteem and self-love. So I decided to get closer to God and it was hard but finally achieved sexual purity and more peace in my life. Well no one wants to date me now lol before when I was ready to jump in bed quickly in the early phase of a relationship had plenty of guys interested of course and I was younger also. But now that I wanted to live as life more healthy in every way I have had no interested parties in 4 years! And I feel bad for saying what I said just n my earlier post but that's how I honestly feel right now. Even though my love for God and having a relationship with Jesus Christ and have had overcome many obstacles just in life with God's help today I felt so much anger due to the rejection of my only 22 y.o daughter whom I raised as a single mom all these years and now that she refuses to hang out together and/ or see me since she moved out with her boyfriend 4 months ago, and realizing that job struggle I always had experienced and the pain so great of failure in life that I have in my heart today is so painful so pas sinful that I deeply hurt and cry. I mean is true so true. Death seems a selfish option because after all why should I kill myself due to other people rejection of me knowing that God loves me truly? I just want to know how can I be successful in the future years I don't want to die I want to live freely and joYFUL please LORD help me!
I totally understand how people feel about checking out of killing themselves because I feel the same way . But also love being alive and enjoying the beautiful things that life has to offer. Is just that I'm tired of struggling to succeed. I have failed in every job I ever had. For some reason that I don't get or understand people reject me and it hurts so deeply even my 22 years old daughter gets annoyed if I want to see her, like I just came back from a trip and brought her some presents she would not want to come say Hi even or ask how I am doing or even get her presents. It hurts me so much and it made me so angry that I started feeling like I hate myself and want it to just die. I'm a nurse here I am a doctor in my country and yet I have to always be looking for yet a new job since I was younger always had a problem with jobs. I have always encountered the sharks those who are ready to destroy you or the other women who just hate me even if I didn't do anything to them always getting fired for politics not even for a good reason other than being late sometimes a few minutes like the last job one minute late the birch fired me. So is something else even if I do . My job well and better than the majority I am the one getting fired. I don't get it. I just turned 50 yeArs old but look lively like 33 at most but I'm so tired if always being rejected and fired and struggling to survive from job to job and never able to save money buy a house or a decent car because I get a job and we hen I'm just getting stable financially oooooooooo m fired again as nd have to start again. This has been going on for all my life I don't understand why people don't like me and reject me I'm so sad and tired just want to die but I like being alive is sad in don't want to kill myself because of other assholes selfishness and hatred I just want to be happy and have peace and the necessary things in life and enjoy my life.
In hate the bitches at every job I had where 4th we y made their b set effort in getting me fired. Why is it that there is one mother fucker like that in every we workplace?
i have all of u beat 53 and no girlfriend never b een married survive delivering pizzaa my car is on the border of working or dying and no one wants to buy it and when i have the oppty for a blessing i dont make it to the place as depression kicks in and keeps me hope everyone i know has succeeded in life so i am the only failure i hate this city and hate this life and want to check out
I am unsure if someone will like me, because I am up in space person (the opposite of down to earth in space), selfish, rude, have cyberbullied people just because they were hurting my friends, spoiled brat, always silent at school, because I suck at sports and I am brave only behind the screen. Does anyone feel the same way?
i continue to fail in the clutch always fail at critical moments had a lovely person willing to promote my book waiting at studio along w supporting personel for live interview w camera and i failed to make it couldnt overcome depression some fatigue and general emptiness o f soul i always miss my blessings by failing in the clutch have sick empty feeling terrified of life/work now terrified of being alone/single as i have been all my life cant seem to cross the bridge w a female i almost want to commit suicide as everyone around me is doing fine in their routine of life and i am still in survival and simple mode
Friday, September 12 2014
I can never do anything right even if I do exactly what I'm told to do. I have the worst luck. I lost my job because of college and now I'm homeless. My girlfriend hates me and it's all my fault. I fail at everything in life.
Too ugly and weird to go to school today so I missed. What a fucked up future ahead of me...I don't look forward to it at all. So many beautiful women and so many cool clothes and material things..so many place I want to see, but I never will....something's I can never have. That's why when I vacation to places like Long Beach, San Diego, Santa Monica, Las Vegas...I only dream of living those lifestyles. But now I'm back in reality, the reality of things is: I will get nowhere in life, and death is the only drastic thing in my future. P.S. I'm thirsty and hungry....can't wait to eat later. That's my life.
I don't have any complaints but I am here to tell you that please hold on to this life , your future is going to be way too dramatic and fun because of wars and stuff .Just hold on. We are yet to have a War
no matric no qualifications only skills in electricity willing to further my studies and complete my matric but no money just a nobody
People who spam this site with annoying random text have more issues than the actual people who are really suffering.
Wow! i really love my life gosh! My name translates to 'destined for good things.' Can you believe that?At this point in life i believe that i'm destined for absolutely nothing. I'm a big hyped up '0' of a person, nothing but a big whoop.Everyday i wake up feeling good about life and it's beautiful promises but...i feel worthless. Truth is people around me overestim8 me and i fail them. My dad calls me a failure, mom has not the slightest care and inevitably i will fail them. Im depressed everytime i think about my future, i want to just kill myself, i even had a dream about someone like me shooting himself witj a silver revolver.. perhaps that is my destiny?? ONLY TIME WILL TELL.
i didnt kill myself because when i was about to i was flooded with empathy and emotion towards thoughts about how my suicide would cause my family pain. my whole life i have never done anything for myself it has always been for others i never knew waht i wanted. now the only thing i want to do for myself is to end my life im not meant for this world and can't be a part of it my physical body won't evan let me!i can't kill myself because of family and so im staying alive not for myself but for others. its so sad how therye so attached to me but its not actually me that they are attached to it is the idea of me that they are attatched to. thier son. im hope i can find the strenght to overcome my sympathy and empathy so i can endit
Thursday, September 11 2014
I hate my life totally . I hate it
I WAS A CHILD ABANDONED BY MY MOTHER AND FATHER..LEFT WITHBAVUSIVE GRANDPARENTS..I NEVER REALLY HAD A FAMILY ABD SUFFERED FOR YEARS FROM POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER BIPOLAR DISORDER AND ANXIETY..I NEVER REALLY WORKED SO HARD AT ANYTHING THEN BEING A MOTHER TO THREE LITTLE GIRLS WHO NEEDED ME TO PROVIDE..I TRIED MY HARDEST MAINTAING A HOME FOR THEM EVEN THOUGH I AM FIGHTING EVICTION AFTER EVICTION HUST SO WE DONT END UP ON THE ATREETS ..THEY CAME AND SHUT MY ELECTRIC OFF ITS BEEN A WEEK NOW AND YHE ONLY HELP I GOT WAS 200 dollars..the electric company won't turn it on until its paid..my lease is being violated because I have no electric..so here i am about to lose everything what do i do keep making my angels suffer..no I'mcalling social services and making sure they are to find a good family who cab provide for them..and then iI'm just going to go to sleep dreaming of them and never wake up..the tides always against me..I'm just going to give in and let the pain go.mbecause I'ma failure of a mother
I am giving up on this world.I am a bullied, anorexic, homosexual loser who fails at life.Nobody likes me anymore.Nobody will ever like me.I am leaving.Goodbye fellow soldiers. I hope you live a great life. I think mine will only become better. Heaven will be a beautiful place.Goodbye.
Wednesday, September 10 2014
I am quite bright, but suffer from bouts of depression. i took a masters in a field i wasnt sure about, but it was a dual degree with an international uni so the attractiveness of having two degrees hauled me in. i of course did not subscribe for scholarship, and my mum paid the very high tuition. now i have taken two months off to work on my thesis, and am almost ready, but have not yet got approval for it cos i handed it int late after procrastinating and wasting my life away.i am about to fail my masters. how do i tell everyone i failed and wasted two years of my life, declined good job opportunities.. how can i live my life as a failure now.
somebody you just made my heart drop. I feel like I'm not in control of my own life, I see success as happiness not money and I don't have ether. I let people walk over me because I can't say no, deep down I know there is more to life then work eat sleep eat work ect. I feel like a battery in the end I'll run out, and for what; a car, house,boat,nice TV. all these things will rot away and mean nothing once I'm gone , I fell like I'm in a box the world and I created. I know there's more to life then this, feeling like I'll never find it is making me wonder what's the point.
my friends are all applying to the same university as I am and now I feel like I have even lesser chances of getting into this particular uni (its an ivy). my scores are not perfect, and teachers are being mean about predicted grades. I suck in math and want to kill myself
pressure to succeed is eating me up inside. my life will be just another failure in the gutter in no more than a few years from now. all i can do is wait for the time to come....i have always thought i was diffrrent, special, blessed but i am cursed by my name, the unyielding weight on my shoulders. If i was not too much of a coward i would have killed myself.i have no friends, no one can relate to a mere shadoe of person with a half a heart, mind and no genuine human soul. everytime i try at something i find im able to do it, but the results never show it. God knows i try and try and fail and fail. i cant talk with other people(in my life) its never been worth telling anyone anything. i trust no one i cant love anyone not even myself.....So all i want is to runaway and live in a cabin in some uninhabited place as far from people as can be. People are my greatest source of pain, they disappoint me and vice versa...WHY SOLVE THE EQUATION WHEN YOU CAN JUST ABANDON IT ALLTOGETHER????????!!!!!
The truth is I have failed at everything. I try my best but it is not enough. Its my birthday on Friday and I have one person coming to drinks on the town. I have been through hell this last year lost my flat, job due to redunacy. I dont know how to keep on fighting, I have no energy.
Ironic isn't it? I name myself 'somebody' when really I'm just a nobody. I thought life was supposed to begin in your 20s. Sure I'm just a newborn in that sense only being 21, but I feel so left behind. Graduated high school and thought it was gonna be fine and dandy. Little did I know...ha. That was 3years ago. I tried to go to community college. First semester was fine. Second i got lazy and failed almost all of my classes. Tried to go back the year after that but the same thing happened. Then, in March 2013, my grandmother passed. I was sad but I knew it was her time. Fast forward to September 2013. My mother had been sick for almost her whole life but she always recovered. Until one day she didn't. With my grandmother, I understood because she had lived a full life. But it wasn't my mother's time. I've been out of school ever since with no motivation to go back. My sister moved away from me and I'm lucky to even hear from her once a month. I have a whole 2 friends. Never had a boyfriend... Let alone a first kiss... And I'm 21. Every day I get up and wait like a puppy at the door for one of my two friends to get home. I barely eat. I sleep too much. In fact, I can't wait until the night comes so I can sleep and escape reality. My dreams are so much more interesting than what's real. My internal compass is eternally and uncontrollably spinning. I have no direction or order to my life. I cry myself to sleep at night. I feel like a child. I want to crawl under the table, hug my knees, rock back and forth... I wish there was someone who understands. Someone who I can feel safe with and fall asleep in their arms at night. But that will never come. Perhaps I sign my name as 'somebody' as a plea... A plea for somebody to save me from myself. I fail at life because I am me. And I am nobody.
try this. 17 no girlfriend, no life outside school Im not even successful at school, everytime i make a genuine attempt at improving my academics...I always end up falling short I dont have much time to improve myself and im from education's all that matters witbout it im a failure in life. My father has called me "useless" and a failure and im inclined to believe he''s right.im alone and cant trust anyone. A bastard child with no true siblings, i only have half siblings . i live with my half sister, i dont consider family at all, always smiling and yet wishing the worst for me and same for the others. I feel like im lost in exhile with strangers. My mom (if youd call her that) is never around, probably having an affair with someone. My dad and me dont talk enough..DAMN I JUST WANT A WAY OUT OF THIS FAILURE I CALL A LIFE.
I guess for the moment of depression that seems to be ensuing my life, I'm going to try and keep my goals in front of me and remind myself I don't want just want a job to pass my days away, but earn money doing something I enjoy. I'm guessing that live gets a lot better when your occupation and hobbies feel very similar. Earning a lot of money may buy a lot of stuff, but enjoying life carries a lasting effect.
I feel like I'm never going to be happy because there's this.. there's ugly creature inside of me that doesn't want me to be happy. Good grades in school, sure - but is THAT gonna get me into Oxford? NOPE. I'm so scared I'll never go there and fail and end up going to just this average university and then I won't know what to do next because no one will employ me. Because I have a stammer, and crippling social anxiety, and pimples, and lovehandles, and a genuine lack of actual friends. How sad is that? What am I going to do in the future?Why doesn't anyone like me? Why am I wasting time ranting on this stupid website? WHY
Ugly life with this force against me. I'll never win and this force keeps getting stronger the more I become aware of it. Now it feels like this force is becoming the ruler of my life....won't let it happen. I'll have to kill myself to get rid of it, but then it'll be the winner
I was abused my whole life, I was put on over 10 different medications at 9 years old because I couldn't stop crying and wouldn't talk. Was so drugged I couldn't finish sentences, failed in school, and behaved nearly autistic because of these meds. I never had a friend for more than a few months, they either moved or moved on. I tried to kill myself several times. The last attempt was half assed, but I quit all of the meds cold turkey hoping it would kill me. I went through 5 months of withdrawals and then kind of "woke up" for the first time since 9 years old. I tried to rebuild my life, but there is no way. I am so depressed and anxious. I have nobody. I live alone on disability. I tried college and failed miserably. I cannot do the work, I'm incapable. I have an average IQ, I'm not stupid. However I have been rendered useless due to the meds and missing 10 years of my life. I've been in therapy for over 14 years. Nothing has helped, nothing has changed. My current therapist is a PHD and considered one of the best in my state, she has given up. She has told me I have one final session before we're not working together anymore. I have no hope. No reason to keep searching for hope. I have found every option for my life, and none of them work. I don't want to die, but I'm being backed into a corner and will be forced to end my life eventually. I have tried. When I die, I just don't want people to say I didn't try. I've done everything I can! It hurts so much to hear people talk badly about me after everything I've tried and been through. I'm just not good enough, that's all. Forgive me for not being able, I wish I was. I want to do what's best, and I believe living as a parasite is not best for anyone. Don't speak ill of me for dying, because everyone already hates me for living.
It hurts when I pee, I just want to die. I tug and tug but the pain doesn't stop. I tried every fesable option, squeeze, pushing, but thepain just increases. On day I was so upset, after being ridiculd and beaten by my so called friends. I pulled it clean off, The pain finally stopped but at what cost
Tuesday, September 9 2014
25 and I still have a hard time fitting in and making and maintaining connections with people. I've been out of school for three years and I still can't find a full-time job, although I have been able to freelance as well as work a few part-time jobs, but shit, like I feel like I'm a lifeless vegetable with no hope in sight, and nobody to guide me. This is where I feel like I FAIL AT LIFE.
i ve been dreaming about being someone in this life since i am remembering myself. now i am 20. and i have nothing. my parents pay for everything in my life and its terrible. i want to be someone important i want to be someone known. be someone respectful. i always talk about it. i know that the best way of reaching something in life is skipping speaking and start doing, but i am afraid. really. i am afraid to risk. i am afraid todo something that hurts others, people that i love. my family. i am afraid because i know to get something you always have to give something. i don't know what to do. i am losing my time, my life my dreams...but... this life is zoo difficult oh gosh...
i fail my matric for all most 8 years so i dnt no what to do anymore cous i want a matric
Everyone is driving and growing up, I'm just hanging around not doing anything. I can't keep a job and can't remember anything. I have so much math work to do I'd rather knock my head against a brick wall. I feel narcissistic and hold a grudge against my mom for ruining a friend's funeral. Bitch leave me alone I don't wanna hold your phone, no I don't see his chest moving. I confronted her after the funeral and she got mad at me. I love her but she's more narcissistic than I am.
I try to study but I seem to fail every term at school its my final year at schoold I'm scared that I won't make it to university
i really like this like REALLY REALLY like her and shes kinda shy but then agian so am i however i am funny and goodlooking. last year many people told me that she also liked me but i was to shy to make a move and because of that now things are really awkward and she never talks to me anymore. prom is coming up and i wanna ask her but so does this other nerd kid who gets along with her and im scared she will chose him because i dont have the balls to do it. im such a fail.
Thursday, September 4 2014
is it what it os i dont see what it is how it should be but how it was to be
its very lucky that you all dont live in the poorest parts of Africa, cause it would be interesting to hear what they would have to complain about. is it the fact we as humans dont think about other beings situations and only look at ones own, forgetting there are many more people out there that are worse off.
My hubby has paid so much money for my short course and i have failed,wrote my re write i know i have failed also now i have my last chance i have no one to help by teaching me because i am lost.Im afraid i could fail and my life will be very difficult.....because i wont get this chance again.
No one will ever love me. I go so many places...see so many beautiful women. A few different women I end up thinking about for months to come. I fall in love with them at first sight when they only pass by me for a second. I imagine our future together. Instead I'm a fat, ugly, poor, broken, sick, jobless, short, virgin loner. No girl will ever like me, as long as I'm alive. I don't even think satan wants me. I'll just be an ugly poor loser with no social life. If any one else had my life they would kill themselves. I expect nothing good in life. I try as hard as I can at everything. My dad babies me and won't let me get a job at 19. He is stubborn and won't listen. I try talking to strangers - making small talk. They ignore me.....there's no hope. From now until I die I will give up and see just how bad life can get before I won't notice.
"Abandon all hope ye who enter here"Never has been used more appropriately. For all you doubters who come scrounging through the interwebs to search for advice...a glimmer of "Hope" give it up. There is no hope. Hope is dead. It never existed to be begin with. We all live shitty lives. You live a shitty life, i live a shitty live and you probably just came to mock the dejected. All i can say is refuse to be weak. Refuse to pity yourself and refuse dwell on dark clouds and dim spaces with "no hope" Be proactive, go out there and make something of yourself. Start small and gradually become something greater. Live only for yourself. Work only for yourself. No one loves you. No one even likes you. You are on your own, but take heart in that you will become stronger if you "grow a pair" strengthen your resolve for yourself. Love only yourself and live only for yourself, and be free, beholden to no one.
What a life. I hate my family. My mother was abusive both mentally and physically, and then there is my father. I hate him the least, but i definately dislike him. I can't depend on him for anything, emotional supports...advice. I can't even depend on him for simple favors like picking up a few things from the grocery. As a single father i am grateful for what he has done what with the roof over my head and all that conservative jazz, but fuck. HE DOES NOT KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH PROBLEMS. HE WAS NEVER AROUND WHEN I WAS ABUSED AND REFUSED TO BELIEVE IT EVEN HAPPENED UNTIL IT WAS TOO LATE. Ah, can't forget "Lil bro" either. Back when i was abused he was the smuggest piece of shit on the face the earth. He would hold me at knife point when i could come out my room after attempting to gain peace from his tirades. He would poke fun at me to the point of tears and tell ne my abuse has never happened. How i should man up. Ha! He has changed but the damage has been done and i want him dead. Now i'm 19 and nothing short of a hateful shrew. No job at the moment...running low on hope. Advice?
I'm 20, I never had a girlfriend. At the university I failed at about half of the objects so I'm a year behind, No one really cares about me (besides my family ofc) I'm not great at anything. I'm not rich, I'm not hot, I'm just waiting to die, there are only two reasons why I don't kill myself. 1 life might get better, it has a ridiculously little chance but it's not impossible 2 if I killed myself it would destroy my parents mentally.Damn. When I'm not drunk I can't even talk. Also I'm horny as f*** almost anyone would be good for me at this point, haha... oh and I almost forgot, I'm extremely weak (physically), I can't drive and I'm extremely easy to embarrass.So yeah, if a giant asteroid suddenly killed everyone including me, I would be almost OK with it.
I've been madly in love with my younger cousin for the last 9 years. She's a tall slim beautiful girl and I'm 32 and getting fatter and balder with every passing year. Oh god, now there's no way. Seeing her causes me intense physical pain and makes me want to vomit continuously until she leaves. This is followed by several weeks of unimaginable crushing depression and a feeling of complete hopelessness.
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I feel miserable and like such a loser and failure in life and at everything. Up until a few months ago I never believed that I would ever accomplish anything, until I got my results back for the prenursing studies and I worked so hard to get distinctions in all the modules a d I did . I had applied to lots of the colleges and had met all the requirements and my leaving cert and grade c in maths. It made me so happy I finally thought that maybe for once that I would be good enough. My dreams and hopes of being a nurse and going to college would come true. I never asked for too much. I worked so hard to make it happen. Yet not for a second that I would have thought that I wouldn't get a place. all my dreams and hopes of being somebody, a nurse and hopes of a batter future is,shattered and now I am back to the,beginning. How can I rebuild my dreams again and hope and hope that maybe someday I would be the one that is offered a place. I feel like a loser and a failure and I am living a meaningless life, life is meaningless without a dream. How can I move on? What can I do , what I can I do batter so that the same,thing would happen next year?
After wasting 3 ears of my life at a private school funded by my dead mothers estate , I now have only 4 GCSE's after panic and breaking down in tests. I'm only 17 but I often though about self harm and suicide. I know its not right to have a pessimistic view but everything I do is a failure. In my academic life, having no social life, no creativity or energy I'm dyslexic which is a failure in it's self. Sorry for waffling and moaning but I just feel so bitter . I thin that there is another way to live but I have learned it. So why not died when nothing has any purpose?
I'm so scared and anxious of the future and everyone around me is moving forward with their lives. Everyone I love wants to move away and I'm still stuck in square one. I don't know if I'll ever move on. I try to stay positive but everyday I hate myself more and more.
well here it goes....i am a 16 year old boy who is living with his parents....earlier this year...i took an examination called jamb and i didnt pass.... I am a very bright student so my failure was indeed alarming...and now my dad wants to kill me psycologically....Oh
HAAA FUCK!!! COM"ON LIFE WHY AM I BLOWING SO MANY CHANCES, I AM WINNING UNGRATEFUL BITCH!!!!!! BUT I AINT GIVIN UP NO NO NO JUST PUTTING THIS OUT THERE TO CREATE THE ENERGY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOVE LIFE
I am from India 24 years old and I have failed the last year in graduation (English honours). I hardly have any social life and even less friends. My parents are tired of me and I am a horrible,ungrateful daughter. I quit my previous college because I was a coward and could not face my friends and classmates as they would be promoted and I would be left behind.....I just want to curl up and die.......but just for the sake of the people I love,I need to stay alive......
Another failure story of mine, i quit this course...I have mentally prepared myself for it...which only freshers do...I am quitting it because i can't struggle anymore...I can't study with the juniors who are 10-11 years juniors to me...I cant compete with them..their mind is sharp..I have a small work experience but still in this course i have to study what i have read 10-12 years back..i have no options but to return back ..Yes I am a failure
I am a failure at life. I am a 32 year old single female with many many problems. By the time I deal with all my personal problems I will be too old to have children. My life is over I can not even start a family and will never be a mother ever in my life. I hate myself and everyday is just a day closer to death so at least I have that to look forward to.
Wednesday, September 3 2014
we all need to go away to some faraway place and never come back. we dont need family. alone, we can handle it. it would be really nice if one day i could travel to a place where no one knows me and no one will ever find me. i could change my name, my appearance and most important myself but until then i´ll continue being the coward that i am.
i m from india. i did mbbs out of my parents wish. i never wanted to be a doctor. my passion as i discovered recently is in civil services. i tried twice but couldnt achieve it. now i m undergoing MD in pathology a branch i hate. to leave it i have to pay 5 laks plus whatever salary i earned during this md period. just a few days back i got to knoe that i couldnt clear this years civil services examination too.. i m a complete failure. a disgrace to my parents. dont have guts to just change my field after 7 yrs in this one.can u help me??
I'm a loser. I'm a nobody.I'm 19 and my parents baby me. That's why I have achieved nothing in my short, bored life. My classmates have all moved on to college, they drive, they have relationships, they are intelligent. Here I am; an ignorant baby that my parents continue to hold on to despite the fact that I'm turning 20 next year. I don't know how to drive, have no friends, never had a girlfriend, and I'm still in high school. They babied my brother too, he's older and is barely getting stuff that my classmates have at age 18. They want me to wait that long as well. Now he's going to get everything, and I will have nothing. They will continue to treat me like an infant. I look forward to nothing. Just a fat, ugly, failure. It's actually sad to look at old pictures of myself and to think that that child in the photo will grow up to live such a boring, deprived, lonesome life. Laugh at me all you want....I have no pride or dignity...I have no self esteem or self respect. All my self worth and hope died. Goodbye.
I am currently failing my own life, if you could even say such thing exists.I don't know whats happening anymore, i am faling my 1st year of studies atm, because i do nothing all day instead of studying for exams, or even for the schoolyear. But i just can't care to do it, i don't know.I never had a girlfriend, any friends more serious than people i've seen daily in school, and even then, i wouldn't trust them with anything, also i was bullied and got fat and ugly.I don't know how i'll live, how i should or want live, hell, i bet i won't even be able to find a job and get stuck with my parents being just a parasite, stupid burden for them.I wish i could change, i wish i knew who i am or what i like, because there aren't many things that pleasure me anymore, i only live in constant vegetation, is such a life any better than death? Because it really feels like i died a long time ago, and this is just a ghost of the person i used to be, happy, always smiling kid.I am currently 20 years old, and i have much time ahead of me, but life seems to be much shorter than that, as if everything will pass before i notice.My parents think i am just lazy and prefer to enjoy myself, i don't think they know about any of my struggles, maybe it's better that way, i am a big burden for them already. I just wish i could go away from their life peacefully.
Hello every1. Jus wanna say tht im a failure in life. 16 andno achievements, no lovelife, no love from ppl im all alone. i guess im fine wit tht ive adapted. but i cant accep that im a fail, my own father told me once and im well oncourse to proving him right. im gonna fail math, which i do repeatedly. all i want is to do well in the things i put my mind to and i keep failing. ive thought about ending it anf maybe one day i will.ive touched no ones life, i mean nothing valuable to all ppl around me. lifes handed me lemon and i keep making shit. thats my life.
I have just wrote my 2nd prof. Mbbs exams I got failed in all 4 papers. I dont have any friends . . I cant face my family. . Am trying to cope up bt again depression is trying to pull me down. Pls help me . . I ll b very much thankful
I am the worlds biggest failure. I am just a disgrace to life and my family. I can't get a permanent job so can't save any money to buy somewhere to live like I've always dreamed. No one in the employment market wants me at their company because I'm so disgusting. I am a loser and a failure. My Dr. told me I was obese and need to lose weight, and yet I still can't get the will power to cut takeaways from my life. I've also been trying for years to have a child but have a severe hormonal imbalance that's making it virtually impossible. Some of the people I talk to just say it's natures way of preventing over population. Thanks friends! I wish everybody the best in life but just wish I could get a break.
i failed my cma exams for three times in a row and recently i've given my 4th attempt, and sure of failing this time also.Tomorrow is results announcement dax.I don't want to show my face to my parents tomorrow,so i wanna leave this world, good bye everyone and sorry.
I am faced with a challenge guys dont seem to have an interest in me why is it so?
I feel like most guys dont like/love me all my peers have boyfriends and are happy but not me!
Wednesday, August 27 2014
I am.also 19year lazy and alwaystiredI have big hopes in life. I just wantto be engineer but opted for AgriEngineeringI have big dream in life but nothave enough strength to facechallenge,not have courage to dohardwork.I am not handsome butsome people say I am Cute, I ampainfully shy of girls,I cant talk withgirl.I really dont know who or what Iam.I am belonging to good Hindufamily.I trust on god,But dont know anything aboutAnythingPLZ HELP ME GIVE ME SOMESUGGESSION how to succed in lifeplz.
I am a big failure. My age is 35 and I am married and I do not have any job, earlier I was earning meagre.Now I am doing this course which only freshers do, but I have no other options. In the age , when most of the people are well settled in their professional as well as in personal life, I am still struggling for getting what at least I deserve for. All of my schoolmate and collegemate are well setteled and they are enjoying their life and what I have to do...just struggle at every point..I have no option. Now ..I can not even die as one more life that is my wife's life is attached with me...so I do not know what to do in this situation...I am just taking life as it is coming...there has been no esteem remained in my life...there is no ego remained..and I have no option. I am a the biggest failure .I do not know what will happen to my future children.Would I be able to take care of them and their expenses....Shall I be able to live a respectable life ever ?
Why do people drop out? Self-image created by listening to negative people is frequently low enough to alienate students to the point they no longer see themselves as successful. What they can do about it largely depends how they exercise their freedom of association while studying positive and negative people around them and learning that attitude controls what you do with the talent you were born with and positive attitudes lead to positive results. What you should take away from this is simple..If you think you will fail, you probably will until you begin to think of yourself as a success. Want to get started? Try to join or interact with a group of positive people who share your interests...
You fail at what you believe you will fail at. I flunked 7th grade and dropped out of high school. Listening to the wrong people next made me volunteer for war. After that, I decided to succeed. I aced college, went right on to law school and opened the door to three decades of a rewarding and challenging adventure that never ends. I listened to winners and avoided losers. Once you change your mind about what your future will hold and stop wasting time on people who don't even believe in themselves, you will find who you need.
Seems like most of you are depressed because you failed high school or college. Whats the cause? Why didnt you studie harder?
It always seems like I'm not enough.I'm not stupid, but I'm not smart enough to be top of the class. And if you're not top of the class, you amount to nothing. I always loved reading book and learning new things, but the world is full of people making me feel stupid and ignorant.I'm not ugly, but I'm not pretty enough, slim enough, tall enough. I never had a boyfriend. People say you shouldn't care about having one, but why all the other girls can have someone who loves them and I can't? Why was I sitting home alone while other people were having their first date and their first kiss? The peope I like always seem to fall for my friends. Or my sister.I'm always in the edge of failing college, nobody gives me the job I've searched like crazy and I'm not good enough to get in any post-grad program. Or go study abroad. Which I couldn't afford anyway without financial aid, which I don't get because I'm not poor enough. Poor enough to be unable to do almost anything, but not enough to get help.I don't wanna be jobless, without a purpose in life and living with my parents at 25, but that's who I am and what I am doing.
So my bestfriend moved away, other then her i have no friends. I spend all night alone in my place texting a guy who says i am sexy but hasnt tried to see me in three weeks. He is the first to show any interest since i got out the service. Since i look young older guys dont ask me out and younger guys arent mature. I am now married to my job as a teacher, i even plan on buying a cat.
This is not complaining but i just can't get over the idea that i am wasting, failing my life.I am 34, I have a job, i place to live, from what i have been told i am handsome, smart, funny and quite fit but I am single, lonely, depressed and can't seem to understand why.My family doesn t talk to me, my friends are leaving me or not including me in stuff, i can't seem to make new friends nor find a girlfriend.I am fed up waking up every morning thinking of how i am wasting the best years of my life. I want to do so many things, i have to do lists but when it is time to do anything, i just can't seem to find the last push.I want to travel the world, but no one wants to do it with me, i have travelled alone before and that is so depressing, always being alone, not sharing, posting nice pictures to tease people knowing that deep down you feel like shit cause you are lonely, i hate it.my best friends are ignoring and blocking me from social media, fb, instagram etc, with no apparent reasons...Not sure what to do anymore, i have very bad thoughts at the moment and i don't want to have them cause i know life can be amazing...
I'm 19 years old. I've never had a job, I'm lazy, a virgin, can't drive, and have never had a girlfriend. Can someone help me?
About an hour ago I was out shopping and I was kinda happy. Then I started an argument with someone for an insignificant reason and that person threatened to remind me what a failure my life is. I was really sorry about my attitude toward him but I can't get outta my head the idea that somehow, he was right about me and that perhaps everybody I know thinks the same way. And I feel silly to care about what others think about me or my life. I feel unsafe, I don't want to be reminded of my failures, I'm pretty good at that myself, I don't need someone else to get involved. I'm 27, I'm single, I do a shitty job, I'm not cool enough to get me some friends, not pretty enough to get me some boyfriend. Ok, I know that. Why do you have to use this against me? Do "losers" have to pay twice for their misfortune?
Now I know why I'm nothing in life - my parents. They could care less about my successes. They help my brother get a job and they are keen on getting his license, yet I'm going to be 20 and they don't even push me to get a job or drive. That's why all my peers around me are better than me. If I ever have a kid I'll be the parent my parents couldn't be. But I know I'll never have a kid because I'm socially inept and I have never had a girlfriend or a friend. So now my brother will have a job and get paid and move out and here I am, in suffering and pain. Oh how I could murder a whole lot of people. No one knows the damage I can afflict. No one knows the amount of anger and hatred I have. Girls ignore me, peers ignore me, life fucks me, I am neglected, I have no talents and I am useless. I can exterminate a whole mess of people and rid this earth of all the maggots that inject me with misery. Fuck you all.
life has become a burden on me. I m 33 at present, all of my friends r well settled, all of them hv either govt job or hv their own business. they r happy with their married life. but I m a useless fellow neither I hv any govt job nor any permanent business, neither hv any frnd circle nor girlfriend. parents insists that I should get marry..why should I ruin someone's life or why any girl will ruin her life with me...I am just doing a small business, hardly earning 5 to 6 thousand ruppes per month..I m very lonely & pessimistic. plz help me, should I die?
My fails in life.When i was in school, i was not As achiever, however toward the end, i gained my As.In A-level i didn't score high.I almost failed in a course I do well throughout semester, and almost failed in my thesis.I earned degree, and got fired twice.I did postgrad, and failed in thesis, just got dismissed.Throughout my academic life, friends, teachers and lecturers, including the dean, saw potentials in me.There were times I was at peaks, but then, i fail miserably.The orientation of life and career based on academic and performance seem over for me.Now i'm ground zero and ashamed. An investment gone wrong and burden to my parents. I am 26, female, single, living with parents.
Useless...no ones cares about me. Just waiting to die now, goodbye.
My life is a lie.Why? Because my survival persists purely by error.I managed to slip through society's mental and emotional filtering algorithms purely by bullshitting.Society should have denied me employment opportunities based on my severe social anxiety and inability to make friends or even slightly relate to others.I work a full time plant job with near-perfect attendance. Coworkers say they wish everyone did their job without cutting corners and without complaining like I do.But honestly, I believe I'm just a minimum effort slacker who lives on a comfortable income without truly deserving it.I die a little more each time I see a deserving person who keeps trying to get hired, but can't.I'm pathetic.
They tell me all the time that I have a poetic mind and that I'm really smart and good at drawing and I have great taste in music and Santiago hates everyone.88888888888888888888888888888888888888888888
Wednesday, August 20 2014
What am I doing with my life aged 18 repeating year 12 because I FAILED it the first time and still doing GCSE English I FAILED it twice. I must be completely unemployable any advice
I do not have the financial ability to pay all my bills and take care of my three kids. Check goes in the bank and right back out always in the red. I have five credit cards all of which are maxed out. On what you ask? The basic things you need to live that's what they are maxed out on. I have no real family to turn to or that cares. I can't trust anyone because the the crap that has happened to me in life. I have lived like this for so long. I'm getting so worn down I'm not sure how much longer I can do it. I'm starting to think my kids would be better off with out me. Maybe then at least they could have all the things they want. The only way I see my life getting any better is if I find a huge bag of cash on the side of the road and I'm sure that's not going to happen.
I am mess-ive failure. i even fail when i try kill myself.i need someone to murder me.
I am facing enquiry proceedings in Govt. Job for the wrong doings of others. My career is totally finished.Even my juniors become seniors to me. I have also lost my love. Thus all my dreams dashed out and nothing is existing for surviving my life.Please guide me what should I do
I wanted to save the environment and I ended up working for a an environmental campaign that wastes my effort and poeples time. I moved a couple states away for this position and I believe I may be mentally retarded. Self Diagnosis.
No money, no job, no certificate, a guy that has everything that i don't have took my girl I'm 18 and i feel like shit she actually chose that guy because he can give her a visa i feel awful.
Age 24 , No job, No girlfrind, no social circle and no life!
Well, i always find myself questioning my worth every night. I ponder on why some people were given rather beautiful lives, while others had to suffer. It's as if i was MEANT to live a bad life. I'm good looking, but not once have i had a girlfriend. My friends are often fake with me, so i choose not to have any. My grandpa is sick in the hospital with two amputated legs, so that's no help. My parents split up when i was young, leaving me to my grandparents. I try my best at soccer and have amazing moments, but suck when my self-confidence becomes low- which is often. I have good grades, but i see people around me that have money already and ask myself if this will even get me anywhere. My life is a bundle of shit, combined with depression, anxiety, and loneliness not understood by ANYONE around me. It feels so deeply sad knowing that power comes to those with paper money rather than wonderful intentions. The world as we know it has never and will never change. Life is a bitch. A BITCH
I'm a 16 year old guy who has no life. I'm really fat so I get made fun of and all the girls reject me. Also I screwed up the trust from my parents that they never want me alone anywhere even in the house. They took my money into their control and they make me feel like shit because they favor my older brother than anybody else, even my cousins favor him more. I really want some help to be better as a person
I've realized in order to be happy and successful in life you have to make progress.I spend countless hours of making lists and schedules of how to improve myself but the things I can improve take no brain capacity. My current fast food job I fail at. No matter how hard I try I fuck up. I'm starting UNI in September and I failed in highschool barely accepted in UNI. How am I supposed to succeed in uni when I can barely do a fast food job? And if I do fail in uni what's next? I can't do a basic minimum wage job where am I supposed to go.. my parents legitimately don't care about me. My did uses me as a sexual object and my mom verbally and physically abuses me. All of my friends are fake. They wouldnt give a damn if I left. From the beginning when I said happiness and success comes from progress I can't make any.. any hobby or activity I try my hardest at I fail. So I legitmatley have nothing to give to this world. I'm a useless waste of space. I'm a part of the over populated. I couldn't be a doctor an engineer or some kind of farmer. Because
I am a massive failure.i graduated from the university 8 years ago and i've been a failure since then.now am 33 years,no job,no girlfriend,never had one,no friends,no money and i can't go to my family because there's nothing they can do to help me.am so much ashamed of myself.i even failed when i tried to kill myself by drowning in the sea.wish i had a gun.next time,maybe i'll stab myself. or i'll move to ivory coast since i'm near the border and if i don't get any job,i'll kill myself.i live in an african country and i don't believe in christianity or any religion because i think religion is rubbish.when i was younger i had no choice but to practice christianity and i've been deceived by this christianity shit.my life is really fucked up. i guess some us can't just survive on earth no matter how hard we try; in that case death is preferable.
I spent 6 years in college raising my three kids as I earned my bachelor's degree. Shortly after graduation I got a DUI.Now I'm 27, got no license, no car, no money, no job, nobody will hire me, bills are piling up and we might end up homeless.On top of all that, there's another kid on the way.Considering just blowing my brains out ...
I m. 21 now.. failed in 12th science once, started diploma in mechanical engineering, failed and got detained in 2nd year, again started 12th in commerce,for admission in B.arch, got 3 marks less to qualify for criteria for B.arch, wasted 4 years of my life,wasted my parent's money more than 1lacs,very frustrated and depressed, feels like m gonna break totally now,all my classmates in final year of clgs, m still struggling to get admission in clg,don't know what to do now,i've seen many people did nothing and got very good rewards,why?if they can get what cant I get a small reward to gety life going.. my self confidence is totally gone..!! God plz help me now... save my life atleast for my parents if not for me..!! plz plz plz
Life is unfair. Some have everything, some have nothing. Why? Who decided that? Why are some people ugly and others are beautiful. It's unfair.
I feel useless, stupid, gullible and almost 26 years old but still depend on my parents. I never date, have no friends, socially akward and physically unappealing. Today I fell for scam, I lost the little money that I have. I am depressed, I really want to know why I ever exist?Is it just to show that there are loser in this world because I am the perfect example. My life is a grand joke, a mockery.
Yes, i failed. :-) So what? Life 4 me? Taking a Chance live for today. Who care about next day. Thanks Srinath
most people fail at life because of financial working class social posistions.... and i'm afraid until people start fighting for higher wages to improve the quality of their lives nothing much will change... I realize that people have more problems than just low salarys but I think this is the biggest problem!max lang
Filed for Bankruptcy today. I'm broke and a loser. Lived in an apartment for 30 years. No children, never made good income, never got any second chances at anything, was abused physically and emotionally all thru my childhood, suffer from anxiety and depression all my life, my wife left me 16 years ago. never finished collage, no savings, no retirement, no family. I'd rather just check out of this mess. I have yet to meet one person who I could really fully trust who offered real love. This all seems like such a waste of time.
I fail at everything I do. My parents are over secure and I feel I don't the freedom or the time I want to myself. I suck at sports even though I try extremely hard. I don't have any friends that I could really rely on and no girl even has the slightest of interest in me. I try so hard at everything I do and others get everything they want even if they're not as qualified or didn't even try. All In all I suck at life. And I don't know what to do.
In 12th i failed in maths my parents schold me very much and i gave comparnment exam i worked really very hard but again i failed now i am totally blank i am willing to die no one understands my life is over , i have lost all my confidence i am depressed , i fear if i give test again and fail what will happend so i am going to commit suicide....
Me everything i do in life it just fail like i just left school at the age of 15 without no reason and now i have 2 kids and am 21and i want to go back to school i dnt have money and no one want to help me
Life is Like a sun Rises and then fall but beyond that there is a world we have to.believe on overself take your own descisions in life take advise from others but do that you really likes even if not so good.thats I really learn in life now I am 19 years old thats not too old but life saw me everything its not that I am from poor family.I am belonging to well settled family but in terms education I never done better.but now i descided to take own descision and faced it.after all we came alone in life and also go alone out of life.use that mantra live your life happily and most important BELEIVE IN YOUR SELF
I am a life failure.I am very much behind from my schoolmate and collegemate. I can never imagine in my life that even i can become equivalent to them. I wasted my life's 8+3 years for nothing.I wasted my precious eary youth years after a girl and then I became schizophrenic. I am on medicine. I am married. I have responsibilities but i dont know how will i fulfill them. what will happen to my children i have no income.
Only child, never bonded with mother, father committed suicide when I was 5, mother has problems with substance abuse, forced to lie all the time to my family by her, basically an ACOA with C-PTSD, innability to form intimate relationships with women, humans are becoming more and more intollerable as I get older and angrier. "Only a mother could love it", I've been told and realise this is acually the truth, problem is I never had a childhood and nobody understands me. Trying my best not to resent and hate women, just want to be loved, never will be as that's impossible now, might as well just end it all but feel to guilty to take the final step.
I m btech 2 and yr student and I got back again again on this course what will I do could I drop this and what I do in again my life .?which course I chose again .?
Of course I fail at life you already know that (remote neural monitoring). Why is everything just stupid dysgenic garbage and why am I fatigued all the time, Why am I fat with candida, fungus, bad skin. All this dysgenic trash in this world makes me want to kill myself. Things are supposed to be secular, doctors are supposed to read all medical texts and follow the hippocratic oath. I'm glad I graduated and got the fuck out of high school. All this dysgenic trash in the media, the music industry, publications, the entertainment industry, and even on the internet and in everyones heads made me want to take 20 grams of caffeine tablets so I did. It was a good detox and I got a better sex drive after eating a bunch of protein food. I fasted for like a week with iced tea. Big pharma gave me total impotence and genital anesthesia, also destroyed my ability to focus and my motor coordination.
I failed in life Firstly I wanted to do B.Tech But I scored very less marks so I cant get selected then I drop year and try for B.Arch. I also failed to secure admission in Architecture college my parents waste money for me and I ruined there life how dumb I am nothing but sooooooooo dumb dumb I want to die nothing remain in life.I ruined my own life. my all friends secured good colleges and they enjoy there life but frankly said I am depressed person I cant share this to any one.My parents are so unlucky bcoz they have son like me. I am useless useless I have not friends nobody give respect to me. peoples hooted me.plz god help me or killed me but I am very simple guy I dont want to hurt anyone I trusted on god And I hope one day everything will be all right.
I am exhausted. Today, my parents are pissed off at me because they have to pay $2k for me to attend school in a couple of weeks. I asked if we had to pay for enrollment earlier in July, and they said no. Now, it's early August, and there is a possibility that I may not attend school. I have no money for books, food, or anything. My parents have no money for my books, food for my family, and tuition for my three other siblings. The only thing that is holding me back from taking a bullet to the head is the hard work and money my parents have put into me, and the thought of taking my life away means taking all their hard work and time, bunching it all together, and throwing it away. The immense guilt I feel is stronger than my need and want for a quick death. Please. Someone else kill me so that I won't be a bigger disappointment. I can't do this any more.
I can't take it anymore i want to die with all my heart and all my being. i can't find joy in anything, television, food, drugs, even masterbation i can't find any joy or pleasure anymore i want to die so bad it hurts. I consider myself spiritual and i feel as if the universe or/god is telling me that i am sopposed to kill myself and that this is what im sopposed to do. for the sake of the human race i want to get rid of myself. i refuse to b apart of this world i can't my being wont let me. but i Don't want to hurt my mom im so lost i can't take it. nobody will understand bcus i don't even understand im in a nigtmare on a whole other level
I fail in many interviews that's why I am now like feel frustration and lack of confidence
I feel so upset.I got my results from the SQA and I got all C's.This is exactly the same as what happened last year.I thought I worked harder than I did last year but that's obviously not what happened. Everyone keeps saying that its alright your life hasn't ended.Well I definitely feel like it has.I am hurting so much and I cant tell anyone about it.I am the oldest in my family and even my sister has better grades than I did.all A's. No one respects me any more.I was a laughing stock last year and now its even worse.I feel like a burden to my parents.They try hard to move us forward in life and I just completely wasted it all.I hate myself so much.I haven't got a good shape a good grade and no friends i can geniuenly speak to. I mean what on earth am I even doing.
all my life i feel as tho ive been depressed even tho so far i have had it great i got a roof over my head loving parents amazing friends 3 square meals a job and car, but i feel that i dont have control of anything and that no matter what i do my own worst enemy(myself) is there to say you could have done that better, wow man you suck there are so many people better than you. i always contradict myself no matter what i do. i dont really have any dreams because i feel i suck at everything so whats the point in doing everything and thus ive dropped out of college because i told myself why waste money on something you are never going to be good enough at. ive been told that i have noone to impress i shouldent care about other peoples opinions , but its not anyones opinion i care about its mine about myself but i will never be good enough for myself, im only 19 years old im just a youngin and i know that ive got an entire life ahead of me but where am i going and how am i going to get there if i cant even say hey good job and give a pat on the back to myself. i know im blessed for the things i have. but im cursed with the mind given to me
I m btech student but I went give up this course !what is other option to me? what will i do
I feel that I dug my own grave. I did not work hard enough and still don't. I am not sure if the problem I have even has a solution. If I get kicked out of my grad school program, I don't know where I would end up. I am in love but it seems as though that isn't even as much as a motivation to work. I feel depressed and alone. I also feel lost. I don't know what I want to do with myself. I have been living with a depressed boyfriend for over a year. Lately, his problem was solved. However, I was left as a side casualty. Not knowing where my boyfriend would end up made me not care about my future. I know it sounds pathetic but that was what happened. I need to work but I can't. I know that they are billions of people out there that have it worse than me.
At 46, if i complain about myself, it is awful.. But that is what i am. Failed in most of the efforts in my life. Everything fell in my life automatically & i simply accepted whatever came to me. I see around me now & compare with all.. I am total failure... It is great to philosophical and get contended with it. How long???. Impossible. The fire in belly missed during 20's - results in such a great failure. Inspite of my very good performance in school education, i started lagging from my college life. & since then it has only multiplied. No words can describe my failed life. I will certainly NOT end my life. But will continue to suffer my failed life for ever. ALL THAT I REQUIRE IS A NATURAL DEATH AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. How can it happen.
what is the point of this post? I can share all about my problems but i find that reading everyone else's problem is a much better way than sharing my own. yes I am a failure. although I study at a decent university, life's been a struggle . I have no noticeable achievement to my name, for 3years i was addicted to porn (still relapse) , I have a tiny stature, cant speak up, people dont understand me, financially in a bad situation, Parents health is poor, I have wasted so much of my parents money and shown them no result . I DON'T STUDY ONE BIT EXCEPT ON LAST DAY. i don't have any willpower, i am weak, i don't have any ability whatsoever. I AM A TOTAL FAIL. AND NO I DON'T HAVE THE BALLS TO KILL MYSELF. i will just keep going on and die like a failed insignificant person like me should. oh boy am i going to get a beating once i graduate, Ill never get promoted or married or find success.
How could i tell my parents that i hav in my 1st year engg. I feel shame.
Wednesday, August 13 2014