I'm 38, in massive debt from all my degrees, got sick of applying for teaching jobs at colleges after four years of that and temporary assignments, so I left academia. Now I work at a coffee shop for $9 an hour. I feel I have tried and failed at life. I've been suicidal nearly every day of my life, but now it really feels like I tried and failed; game over. I don't even care. Nightmares every night, no future, all debt. Fuck everything.
I have made it to 40 years. It is much further than I thought. I can afford the bills but I do not check my letter box. I have a good job, but I would rather drown in mud. I am alone. I will always be, alone. The world has no time for me.
i am getting failed in my every exam for last 3 years and i am not studying a bit. I dont know if i am too lazy or i dont want to do it. I jus want to get my exams passed and complete my graduation but none of my plans worked.I am doing b.tech and in 4th year.I am not even trying enough to be more serious about that.
i Don't want to wanti dont want to be a part of this ego structured self centered societyi want to live for something greater than myselfgod won't answer mei don't know what to do so i don't do anything my life is a waste. waste of space, waste of resources, waste of energy, my suicide will be for the greater good
I am relatively smart. Not too educated, but more than enough to be successful. I like what I do. I know what I need to do in order to succeed. But I am not doing it. I miss deadlines all the time. I am living near the poverty line, barely able to stay afloat. But even whatever little I do have is all about to crumble. I am scared of that day, and I know that it is eminent. Yet I am doing literally nothing to prepare myself for it. I am not sure I will be able to endure it when it comes. But I just don't give a fuck. I do not know where my apathy comes from, or what I need to do to get rid of it. I feel like I am deliberately setting myself up for failure, and I don't understand why. It is almost as if I was being passive aggressive towards... myself? Do I subconsciously hate myself so much that I think I deserve to fail? I am mainly writing this because I feel like I need to see what it looks like written down, and hopefully get a little perspective. I do not expect to find any answers here, but if you have any thoughts about my situation, please feel free to share.
i failed at life or life failed me!
Saturday, December 7 2013
I'm a complete idiot. I'm so sorry for all the blindingly stupid things I've done in my life. I'm such an idiot. I hate myself. I'm gonna stick my dick in a paper shredder, or the microwave, can't decide....
Im 24 yrs old, and i have failed. I try to sleep at night and i only see the faces of the ones I have watched die in my face. I hear them quiver and gargle, then them asking me to "save me, please. I dont want to die". Since I was 18 I have Ben living like this, no amount of marijuana or whiskey can make them quit talking. I have failed my patients and i have failed myself.
I should be happy. I pretend to be happy every single day and I can't take it anymore. I want to tell you how much I hate you for making me believe you gave a damn but I love you too much for that. We all just keep lying. I hate myself, I'm fat, ugly, worthless, meaningless, stupid, horrible, selfish, self-centred, a slut, a bitch, a whore, an idiot. I want to die. I hate this.
35 years of age indian woman. smart and intelligent woman.. Am very presentable. I was set up for success with an Engineering degree & ambition. Over a period of time I got a residency in foreign land, but I lost it due to my own folly.2 divorces and totally shattered with emotional break downs and I am finally so tired of fighting and standing up. I have no inclination of setting down or getting married Or having my own family. It does get lonely at times, but its better than having tantrums of a terrible spouse.I got fired from my last job during my 2nd divorce. but I was luckily - I did get some freelancing assignments. I continuously need to keep looking for new stuff... I have given up on life and I am done.At times I feel I am just ready to do a passover, which is also fine...
I found this site accidently ,i have to first tell you this i am not an english speaking person i am from india and please forgive me for any mistakes. i don't know what the better i can get from this. But i want to tell what i feel to someone , i really need some help i can't do it myself . Before all my friends i do see pretty happy , i am so fucked up . But i never lost my hope ,but i don't know what to do i might can do some thing about it, well i am in the 7th semester of my engineering degree until now i have failed almost 30 subjects from about 40 subjects. Tomarrow there is also an university exam, i haven't studied until now , i know i have to study it but i am not doing it i don't know why . Sometimes i think its all why are you worrying about it. When my friends study i just waste time. My family knows about it , they think i am depressed because of my mom's also a depression patient ,i have that medicines regularely. I thought it would be an escape for me i will beame smart again . But it has no effect on me . Even they increased the dose i doesn't feel any change . I think that was not my problem. Its something else. Sometimes i think my family is being too easy on me, they love me very much , they are never strict on me. They dont even never ask me about my results thinking i will become sad. I can't hurt them anymore . I really want to change things , or do i ? , i don't know . I am sure that if i studied well i could pass there exams . But i am not taking the effort. When the exams are far i will postpone the studies thinking its too simple but when it becomes close i couldn't touch it i would lose all my confidence and i really fuck up . This is happening repeatedly . Now i am afraid i am never going to escape it. I want to change please help me . I know i don't deserve any pity and thats also not that i want i want hope
I am running away from my responsibilities, as I've always done. I get nothing done, and I just sit at home thinking about how miserable my life is. I hate myself for that.
i feel nothing anymoreall i do is purge and cryive been found out tooso is there really a point?even my own parents screaming at me for my pain
I know I'm not like some others on this site. I can't get a Job because I'm not old enough, but I feel like I'm so stupid. And no matter what I do I tend to fail... I found this site, because I was feeling lonely and crying... So I decided (knowing it wouldn't have the answer of course) to google "why am I so stupid? No matter what I do I fail." All my friends are so much smarter than me.... All my family seems to be so much smarter than me.... It just feel alone, because nobody can join me with being stupid. I hate the feeling so much. And I can't just sit down and learn stuff, I can't even sit down and do stuff I WANT to do. I just end up in bed laying down, daydreaming or thinking about how much I'm a failure to my friends and family... I hope I'm using this site correctly.... If I'm not I'm sorry for wasting your time.
When ever i ve problem in my job i dnt know how 2 solve it like most people why ?
I failed in an exam twice all my friends passed it expect me i gave my seond attnpt and i failed again i really tried the second time idk what's happening to me.it seems like nly bad things happen to me
Thursday, December 5 2013
for you who are thinking of suicide note this people don't care and they will continue to not care or they may make your life even worse...so instead of just leaving this world alone take those who have made your life as it is or not with you...thus it might change the minds of those in the future to care and be a bit more understanding
Imagine doing all the right things in life only to face worse consequences than all the bad things you have done in life COMBINED!Imagine setting a goal of C let's say. And you worked your ass off to get to B. And as a result of that success, both A and B were taken away from you. Like student loan default for example. And there are no resources to even get back to A! All the minimum wage work in the world is pointless. I find almost as much money a month by doing NOTHING!
Does anyone ever felt that everything that we done is useless? Everything that we done is always failed? Well, i am. I don't know how to deal with this kind of thing anymore... I have tried my best to get rid of this feeling... but it always end up with another failure thus it frustrated me even more... God, please give me strength...
Saturday, November 30 2013
I've fucked it all. I've got no excuses, I've had a loving family, loving friends, a wonderful partner, my health, opportunities. No one has done anything other than give me support, help and love and I've still managed to piss it all away. Anyone would be lucky to have my opportunities, and I feel ashamed that I've made such a mess of my life.I'm sitting here knowing that very soon, the mask will fall, and everything is going to unravel. I'll lose everything. The worst thing is I know who else it will affect and I feel awful that there's nothing I can do that'll stop the impacts on other decent people. I think about suicide every day, but can't go through with it, as know that will still fuck everyone over too. I've written suicide notes to everyone I know in my mind, but can't bring myself to put them to paper.There's no escape, it's all my fault and I am paralysed with fear.I'm sorry.
When u read this text I had gone from this world
i didn't fail at life... society has.
Thursday, November 28 2013
LiFe is a BiTCH! If she would have been a SLUT, she would be easyer. \m/(-_-)\m/
But when i read ohers complains, i just realised- that everyone is feeling alone- but were not alone, we have us...so yeah, you can ''bullshit'' me, or you can take that as a friendly warm helping hand. I know i'm alone in my shit...but At Least I'm Not the only one like this :)
Hi! Everyone here is complaining, and how i can see you All have good reasons for it, and i can understand what you All feel....cause i wanted to come and write here that "My life suck, i can't get a job, i can't do anything right, people don't like me: they don't like my looks, my face, my soul, my feelings. My dad is a proud motherfucker so he ignores me (but i still love him), my mother suck up to me 'cause she's afraid i'm gonna die alone by my hand, and that make me more sad, cause i'm starting to believe her...and every friend i know- runs away from me. Its like i'm a rat in the kitchen, and everyone is trying to push me away, its like thats "there job".
I was a top student A+ in everything. Now i have fucked up my life, i´m failing, my parents hate me, they said so. I have a secret relationship with a boy who´s 5 years older and i don´t even love him. He has a girlfriend too, and we´re friends. I have anorexia and can barely walk anymore. I´m losing myself, the real person that i love, everything.. help me.-16 year old girl.
i failed every step in my life love carrier everything
There's never enough caramel chocolates in an assorted chocolate box. that is poo balls
Wednesday, November 27 2013
Seriously. I will pay someone to put a bullet through my head. $4500. Comment below to make your application.
I failed in exams because of my laziness.I don't know what to do.When I take a book for studying I cannot study..what should I do...
patience is a building block of one's personality....
lack of prefection meanslack of creativity meansNo life...:(...so i reached the end of my life...no more light ...i'm surrounded by darkness...but i am walking in darkness with unending path...& no direction...my aim is to find some light in darkness.....:'(
oh god just kill me right now
i made a basic grammar error
I'm 17 and I would say I have a good life because I was born into it, but I'm so lazy and unmotivated. I spend 80% of my time doing nothing and thinking about what I need to do and beating myself up for not doing what I should be. I have no energy. I physically cannot do things because I'm too lazy. I don't understand how everyone else does things, where do they get their energy? I don't get it.
Tuesday, November 26 2013
Stop feeling sorry for yourselves and change what you don't like about your life. This is a depressing site
Failed again...again...i was born in darkness...:(...
To any of those who say we here on this website are pathetic than you are no better than those who discriminate towards blacks. If you are going to make fun of us you may as well call a black guy a nigger.
Im 17years 0ld and im affraid t0 have sex with my b.f(18) because i think my b0dy is t00 ugly and im shapeless
I'm dumb and have no freinds
I'm 30 years old with no college degrees, no job for a few years, my biggest accomplishment was getting a stupid GED, and now iv lost my life. I messed up big. Last weekend I went to my (Now ex) girlfriends(Of 7 years) brothers wedding. Before the wedding I told my girlfriend I don't want to drink I just want to go home after the wedding so we could lift weights the next day. Well people there were "counting on me" so I drank. During the wedding after party I seen my girlfriend who doesn't smoke because we have a pact that smoking is disgusting together. So I see here smoking (by this point I'm drunk) and say to myself If shes gonna do that then Ill go dance with this girl. So I dance with a random girl for literally 1/4 a song, went back to seat and was done. Fast forward a bit and I walk out side its time to get ready to go. I walk over to my ex's mother and she starts yelling at me for dancing with another girl and not her daughter. She slaps me hard across the face. I'm shocked and walk away. I get my ex and we start driving home. Me in my drinking stupor am yelling about how fucked up it was and I just wanted to walk home to clear my head. They would not let me.I get back to my house , its me my girlfriend the girl that drove us home (Stephanie). I get out of the car and notice her mother sitting in vehicle across the street. I run over to apologize to her and I gave her a hug. Mother gets out of car walks across street, standing next to the other girls vehicle starts yelling at me again and then decks me really hard across the face again. Now I'm so drunk I lost my cool and threw her to the ground and slapped her a few times back. My ex and Stephanie grab me punching me trying to get me off. I throw them and am throwing arms around like a mad man, accidentally deck my ex and then I ran off down the road.I walk around the block and cops are at the house. I approach The them and ask " whats going on" They yell "Get on the ground" Then they say again after a very brief moment" get on the ground and then proceed to tazer me. They pick me up took me to jail. Ill spare the jail portion, but it was terrible. I get out and try to get ahold of my best friend of 7 years(My ex) (We literally have been together almost every single day for 7 years, We have done everything together. I'm madly in love with her). She was missing.I finally get a hold of her hours and hours later and she tells me she walked to a strip club down the street(which is unusual for her to do) and meets a man there and he took her to his house. She tells me she cannot be with me any longer. I'm plead over and over for the past few days shes not having it and she says she wants a few days off and for me to stay at my mothers. So I do thinking Ill be going back home after she clears her head a bit. Well a day passes and I try calling her all day and she doesn't answer the phone. So I talk with my step father and he suggests that she is probably screwing and living with the guy she met that night at the strip club, Of course im in disbelieve I mean 7 years you would think you know someone. So I show up at my house and her cars is there, but I walk inside she is gone, my bed has the sheets I slept in on floor new sheets on bed and some ones phone charger by my bed. We also smell a strong smell of gross smelling cologne. I lost my mind and knew I had to move all my shit out. So for the next 3 days I proceed to move my stuff out. My dog that she bought before I was with her is so sad and whining the whole time. He was my little buddy.I now have a court date for supposed damage to vehicles on the night when I pushed the mother, I have charges from the police, They state that I resisted arrest, The lawyer says worse case I get a year in jail. I lost my girlfriend of 7 years, I lost my dog of 7 years, I'm now having to live with all of my belongings (a lot of stuff) in my mothers 9x9 basement room.Im 30 years old. I have 10k in college debt but no degree, no money, no friends, shit credit score, my other dog has cancer and is going to be dead with in the next few months, I can no longer live the life style I once lived with my ex(she would buy food and supplies for the two of us and we would share). I have nothing. I spent all last night contemplating suicide but failed at that as well. I'm truly a loser in life. I have nothing now. Thanks for listening.
I feel like shit. I don't have any friends, I feel ugly and fat, my family sucks, my mom is just so stupid, my father left me and above all that I've been sick for years. Wtf am I doing wrong? Why does my life suck so bad?! I hate this.
My primary reason for not killing myself has been that I consider it a betrayal of the two people on this planet who care about me. Months ago one abandoned me. Today the other betrayed me in a bewildering broad-siding kind of way. It makes me want to go for a walk, find a quiet isolated spot, and carve myself up like a Christmas turkey.All our lives we're haunted by the cold chilly shadows of the empty, meaningless, mortal, futile nature of the shit storm we face. And somehow, we fail at throwing off the shackles that bind us to keep plodding through it. All it takes are bribes and threats. Eat this tasty food or suffer hunger.Failing at life which is a "F" in lie? I fail at ending it. I'll come up with some other bullshit excuse to keep going on. I'm getting better at not giving a shit and being happy lately. Apparently my integrity can be shattered with a good sandwich or milk and cookies. Fuck. I wish you well fellow prisoners. May the path predetermined for you by the infinite buzz of matter and energy of which we're made be a good one.
Saturday, November 23 2013
I'm nothing. I've achieved nothing. I fail at everything I set my mind to. I have no interests, no desires. There is nothing in this world for me. I don't know what to do. Religion, helping people, loving people. Nothing fills the empty void of darkness, and the results are the same- rejection. Need a bottle, need a gun. I'm so rational that I realize ending it will only make me cease to exist also slashing any chances of happiness (however small they may be) I refuse to be a coward, I refuse to be pitied and looked at as a loser. I hate you all. I hate everything. There is no love, no happiness, no joy, no comfort. Only pain, suffering, malice, hurt, anger, spite, death, emptiness. Live your lives assholes. Be happy, but know there are those who are incapable of happiness and appreciate your ability of happiness.
your mama is a bitch after i did her she slaped me
I worked hard last year, no where near as hard as I could have I admit, but I was good at the things I practiced, and still got literally fail and one grade above fail grades for everything. I learned some of the things inside out and still fell flat on my face.I brought home some good news home to my parents a few weeks ago of an A grade in an exam, only I put the A grade on assuming it was an A considering I got 85%, but I'm so naive I didn't realize the highest you can get is a C, so the real results came today, and my father said he feels sick to look at my face. He calls me a cow sometimes, or a goat even, because I'm so mediocre with academics. I'm quite shit at socializing and awkward too. I lack the most simple common sense sometimes, I just feel so shit at life, like a failure at life, which I believe I am. I hate this shit feeling. Worst thing is I feel numb and like it's my fault, which it probably is.
Wednesday, November 20 2013
I am a perfectionist, I have been told by many. I strive to be the best at what I do, especially academically. So when I got the news that I was not accepted into the NHS, I was depressed. Was I not good enough, after putting 10 years of hard work into maintaining nearly perfect grades and being the best I can be, was I still not good enough? Why must I be so self critical. I hurt the people around me from depression. I will never be good enough. Never.
My professor tell me i will not defaulter you but he did and he gives me yearback in my semester. I want to kill myself. my life is burden. Today i am mently disturb. my brain is burn. i am depressed. i want to kill myself...........somebody tell my what should i do
My professor i will not defaulter you but he did and he gives me yearback in my semester. I want to kill myself. my life is burden. Today i am mently disturb. my brain is burn. i am depressed. i want to kill myself...........somebody tell my what should i do
I failed in my life , sometimes i wanna kill myself , i failed every part in my life , my first failure was in my engineering entrance test later in my engineering life later in getting job next cheated by someone lost 1 lac rupees later again cheated by other person lost of time and money , i've no friends , no wealth ,no job, my mother has health problems ,after 3years after completion of b.tech ,still now i'm trying for job .but i cann't get job still now so i wanna die i'm a looser i wanna die
i am 25year old and i fail ssc but i want to do any course to start my careear so please tell me which course i should do
I want to kill myself. I have nothing to live for. My life is a burden. No body loves me. I had horrible childhood.My mother used to beat me severly she has made me a timid,weak and metally incapable person. I want to kill myself. I have nothing to live for. My life is a burden. No body loves me. I had horrible childhood.My mother used to beat me severly she has made me a timid,weak and metally incapable person.
i am 25year old and i fail ssc but i want to do any course to start my careear so please tell me which course i should do
I tried for AIEEE during my +2 but i failed.I tried many jobs in diferent company's but failed.I tried for GRE for master's.Again i failed.what i need to do....am failing every time.by this am very depressed...really i wanna die
Suicide is the answer. Just search Ethylene Glycol and and drink the antifreeze.
i don't understand, i just can't get a girlfriend, i am tall, handsome, i have money, a house, a job and good manners, a pleasant personality and all, but still girls won't look at me.
town got obiterated by typhoon. need help
I want to kill myself. I have nothing to live for. My life is a burden. No body loves me. I had horrible childhood.My mother used to beat me severly she has made me a timid,weak and metally incapable person. My father died when I was 15. All responsibilities fell on my sholder. my family only wants money from me. I was forcily married to a illiterate and quallersome woman. My life is a living hell.
Tuesday, November 19 2013
All I wanted was to be normal, to have a happy and peaceful life, to love and be loved. That’s all I ask for. Apparently that’s just too much.24 year old male, my life hasn’t gotten any better–in fact, it’s gotten multitudes worse. I’m even more messed up, completely broken on the inside and unable to cope with life.Is life a cruel joke? It probably is.Is life unfair? Oh it most certainly is. And I definitely got the short end of the stick.Will I ever feel fine? Will I ever be able be at ease and enjoy life? At this moment, I feel hopeless, in despair. Will things ever get better? If it hasn’t by now, what makes me think it ever will??I just don’t have any confidence that I will be able to “fix” my life, and to “fix” myself. Haven’t been able to do it so far, only been dragging myself further and further down the depths of mental instability…My life has been fucked up ever since I mom died. I worked hard to get through it, I even had hope back then. But now, after 20 whole goddamn years of absolute pain and agony, I haven’t gotten better, but I have gotten worse.Help.Who will help me?I know- I am alone in this world. No one gives a damn about me.One thing that keeps me from suicide is that, I refuse to let all the assholes in my life think they won. If I were to kill myself. but if i could I would kill all of them firstwritten by bah but edit some of it because he or she sum up my life thus far
i fail at life whenever i want something so badly i let it slip away. Im considered cute to people but retarded idiot, who always looks lost. Today i had a chance to prove to myself i can make it i can change and become someone who can be respected confident and totally sure of herself, but today i failed i was nervous worried and sounded weak and confuse like i always did.
As i said im a woman of 34 years, i have three children and single. I have no job as i have qualification and i fail matric in high. In my life i accepted failure because i spent my whole life ungry at everyone and everything endedup destroying my childrens life mine too. Now i need to get out of this miserable life because its not worth it and i don't how to or where to start. I've tried looking for a job but im not lucky yet please help.
Today they made it officialI'm anorexicBut I'm still so fat and my mom told me I pig out and eat 1500 calories a day even though usually each meal is 100 or so for me...They tell me I'm anorexic but I'm too fat
Saturday, November 16 2013
I WILL find a way to fuck up.
This is more of a rant about how society has failed me. but i just need to get this off my chest and actually type it out. last Saturday i was robbed and sexually assaulted. i still cant believe it, i never thought it would happen to me. im so angry and so sad and so mad at this world and this society for allowing this shit to happen to me and countless other men and women. im 20 years old, my life hasnt even started yet and i already have this to get over. the attack will haunt me for the rest of my life i will never feel safe again, i will never be able to be intimate with anyone ever and i fell i will never get justice. i submitted a complaint to this site maybe a month or 2 ago before i was even attacked. and the horrible thing is i wish i could remember what it felt like to have hope in the world. i just want to know im not alone in this world and for people to understand that this is a huge huge problem. i want justice. i want equality.i want my voice to be heard.
& to think my life was bad. Come you guys the things we are complaining about and some wishing you we're dead has to stop. I know things get majorly rough to the point u don't know if you're gonna make it or not. Lets take every trial and leave it there, but not forget to to learn from every mistake that has gotten you in this situation. I love you guys and don't even know u, but don't for one second think you're worthless and god is making some changes for the better. Wheeeew I need to take this into consideration also. My heart is so heavy right now, because I thought and felt like I was alone on earth. I still feel as if I'm alone, but to see so many of u that feels like I felt makes me feel loved. Regardless of everything the main gift your have on earth is breathe!!! Count to 10 & re evaluate yourself!!!!!! Love Brittany
Saw my childhood love today. What an angel... both by appearance and by soul. I feel horrible for not doing everything I could. Now it would be both near impossible and wrong of me to even try after so many years. This confession didn't even help me as little as I had hoped. I deserve all the regret. The only good thing is knowing I will move on dying bit by bit everyday. Never needed a place to rest my weary soul as much lately.
Thursday, November 14 2013
I'm 22 and a half. I've never had a job. I can hand out as many resumes as I want and no one will ever call me (no, not even Mcdonalds). I have one year of university, and now I'm not in university because I couldn't pay the debt down. I'm over 5000$ in debt for almost nothing. I have social issues and appear flat and insipid to others (which is why I always fail at the few job interviews I've had). I've never had friends and I feel I will never be socially confidant.
i am failing from last 8 years yet i am trying but deep inside i feel i did not have in me.apart from that i have no relativesno real friends nothing to live foralso i lost interest in smoking and drinking i am going no where but in dark from which i will never came out
I fail at life from the very beginning.First grade teacher:"This is what happens to people who don't listen. They go nowhere in life."
Wednesday, November 13 2013
Fire destroys Arlington Church of the Nazarene.WOOOHOOO!!!Hail Satan!
I am a failure as a mother. I failed at being a wife. My husband left me for a 20 yr old after 10 yrs of marriage. I am 43,He is 45. My 12 yr old daughter resents me. We had to move, I had to take a new job which now means she went from seeing me every night at home to only seeing me 2 nights a week at home. We argue all the time. This is not the life I ever expected for myself and her. I don't know how to make it right. This child is my life and I feel like I'm losing her.
I am failing in my university studies although I work hard as I could sacrificing most of my time towards studying and I just find there are too many people who are better endowed than I am. All my friends are moving up in the world have a stable job and even accumulated enough money to start a business on their side with their job. The close friends that I have thinks I am pathetic and my self-esteem is always trampled when I meet them. What am I doing wrong?
Left university with an awesome degree and plenty of prospects in a new graduate job with big firm. Always wanted big career in big city didn't want marriage or kids,career girl through and through. Failed at graduate scheme because of personal problems but didn't quit. Now stuck in dead end job with no career, no friends and no way out. Might as well settle down as I will never get what I dreamed of.
Bipolar..36 college educated and cant hold a job, not that i've had an offer in over a year. My parents pay my bills and food stamps is the only saving grace for me and my children. Lost my disability case because i can be a "bench hand." What the hell is a bench hand and where do i get that job? Suicidal at least once if not more weekly but i have kids..and that is wrong. I have lived strike that survived for three years in this hell. I sit and watch tv all day because i am ashamed to go outside. The worst part? I have no hope. What do you do when you are a failure at life?
Im in need of a womans love but cant get it. This is why i fail.
I feel like life oculdn't go any worse. I failed in my physics exam and the only subject I've ever studied properly is physics. I've failed in love. I spent the last few months trying to impress a girl whom I hadn't seen for 8 months on phone and texts. We talked a lot to each other. Now she's suddenly gone silent. No call, no text and if I try she just says she's busy. I dont even know if she did feel for me or not and thats why I'm unable to let it go. I have no good friends. Just a bunch of idiots. My life has become so confusing, strange and full of pain. I dont know what to do. It feels like I've worked, still working so hard for absolutely nothing. :(
this wedsite wont let me post
sometimes life is really hard you know like you never really want to talk to anyone about anything,. i just want to curl up in a ball all day and read m,y books and watch netflix but i know i cant. im so done trying its just all way too stressful. i hate this.
aphg is a hard class and i fail at it. i fail at soccer and friendship. i hate my life and everyone in it.
if you think your life sux, check out how many have died during the sufa typhoon hyain "the largest storm ever recorded in history with speed of around 195mph!" that hit the philippines a couple days ago. Im still in shock cuz we havent fully recovered yet from the 7.5 magnitude earthquake that had happened recently and now came this devastating storm. And i heard another storm is coming this week i pray its not as bad as hyain and that no one gets hurt.Anyway, my point is, you have to value your life and everything you have right now. A lot of people in my country are struggling to live after that nasty typhoon and all of tacloban (the area where most casualties and damages are recorded) is heavily devastatedand it'll probably take a year or so to recover from the aftermath of the calamity.
I just got fired from my job a couple days ago. I'm 23 and feel like I'll never be able to make it on my own. Holding a full time job is tough for me, because I'm just not fit for this world I guess. I paint graffiti often, and it seems to be the only thing that keeps me going. Do I need to mention I've never had a girlfriend either? I really don't hate life, but I feel it hates me. I just do nothing but struggle. Often times when I look in the mirror I can only think how I wish I were dead.
Tuesday, November 12 2013
To deny changes would be to deny realities. I'm using the plural on purpose
I'm currently intoxicated... In a few hours time it would be Sunday again. I no longer believe in god but live in a 'conservative society'. I used the quotation mark on those words because the youths here funicate all through the week and ask god for forgiveness in church. If god was real wouldn't that be disgusting!Now I have to join them in the circle of hypocrisy. I wish I was rich and famous, then I would travel every Sunday (stay away from those people).
In order to succeed you must fail.
I constantly feel empty and unhappy. I dnt knw what's causing this could it be the fact that I'm a 23 year old unemployed woman who still lives with her parents and younger siblings? I feel I have reached an age where I should be independent, set an example 4 my siblings bt I'm just useless. I keep appling 4 jobs bt nothing comes up. I went 2 college, got a couple of qualifications but now I'm stuck. Where is my life going? I'm just a waste, I have wasted a lot of money studying now I'm wasting food, water and electricity. I mean what's the point of living when u hav no purpose????I dnt wana die I just wish I can start afresh, make better choices. Myb I'm suffering bcz of the course I chose or perhaps my life is what it was meant 2 b :(
I'm so mad. hurt. sad. frustrated. confused. I wish I could just end my life now. I've failed at caring for my daughter. I couldn't protect her. She got hurt because of me. Nobody understands me. Nobody cares. Hah. I'm so bitter, the world has made me hollow. I'm dying from the inside out and I don't know how to change it. Can someone please help me? I need some serious help.
I'm at my senior year. These days are supposed to be for us to find jobs to be an intern. And the thing is I didn't go out for jobs. I said the jobs are rare and I'm not qualified and I could use it to prepare an exam which is really important for us, but actually deep in mind it's just I am so afraid that I wouldn't have any chance to get in any company and I would rather sit at home to enjoy than fight for my life. And now I've heard that some of my classmates have been doing just fine at their internship and suddenly I'm really upset. I'm such a coward and a loser. I fail at everything.
I try so hard but continually fail in the most epic ways. Im trying so hard to straighten my life out for my sons sake.. but every time i try to pull myself from this ghetto mentality i find myself worse off than before. I just want a career i mean how am i suppose to feed so many mouths on a middle wage salary...all my dreams have gone out the window, all imagines of success or happiness or love, its all gone... i fail at life, wheres the reset button?
Saturday, November 9 2013
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I try so hard its hardi fail at life sick of life sometimes wanna kill my self im not worth living they say we all here for a reason fuck that i got no reason
my face is cursed with acne scars. i am gay and a lot of people especially my friends have told me im ugly. I dont really give a shit bout how i look. All i wanted is to have sex with hot str8 guys and to feel special. many of you are prolly endowed with good looks so sex comes easy. In my case i have to pay a guy so i can suck and fuck. Im poor and no one'd want to be intimate for free. Thanks to my hands
I am persuing a 5 year law course and have failed for the third time at college. This is completely my fault . I don't know what to do.
Thursday, November 7 2013
Don't Believe anything negative people tell you.
This website should have its own article on encyclopediadramatica.se.
I come on this site for a laugh tbh. Not only do i not fail at life i am such a winner that i could shit in my own hand and say here smell my shit. My shit is money.
my family is the best place i ever seen; my parents are really great, they take care of all my mistakes; they forgive my mistakes every time; they never point out the mistakes at all; im 28 now, wanted to do some payback by making my parents life more comfortable in coming future; i dont know how to do it.i lost my career; all i have is a dream; im feeling bad and dont know what to do. staying like this makes my parents feel bad. my gf is a pity; she belives that i'll take care of her; all i have is love thats all.. with only love no one can be happy; money plays a major role. i hate myself the most. i ruined my gf life. my parents n brothers too. if i die only 3 persons will cry from heart. i hate myself for being such a loser. im really sorry.If i weren't born, my family would been a heaven. and im really praying for all - who are suffering more than me.. all i can say is every will be fine.
I am 65, what do you know at 21 about failure, I'm talking about a LIFETIME,
I feel like everything I've done has all been for nothing; and what has it all gotten me alone and cursing my existence.
I was unhappily married. Left my husband with our two children for a man who used me like a toilet. Moved outta state. Come back. I was seein so many different men. I was emotionally bankrupt and by the time i realized it it was too late. The boy of my dreams hates me now, my ex husband hates me. I have no friends. My family wont help me. Im a 20 year old failure. Just hurts it was my own doing.
I'm being ripped off. My music was used in a popular project I sell royalty free, and now I have people dishing it out for free as they have illegally distributed it. That's a few thousand downloads I'll never see and a few thousand missing from my bank! Why do people feel entitled to do these things?! And not a single word was said to me directly about it. I'm poor enough as it is.
I went through a lot to get in a great university and my parents supported me. I am failing 2 subjects and I feel like i've let them down and wasted their money. They are quite old and are still working their ass off to send me in Uni
I'm trashI'm sad all the time and it's awfulI'm bad at physics and math and I'm developing an eating disorder , should I just quit before I fail completely
I am probably the only loser in the family. Everybody else is a doctor(or going to be a doctor) is an engineer. owns a business or just very successful in general. I am 27 years old, been going to college for almost 10 years because I have been failing courses, still living at home off my mother who is almost 70 years old, and I work at a crappy job that barely pays me 100 dollars a week. She gave my a ultimatum that I must get myself together by the end of the year or I will be kicked out and she will just live with one of my sisters and enjoy her retired life. She is only working because I am here smooching off of her. What sucks is that I have little to know motivation to do anything. It doesn't help that I am still a virgin and never gone on a date. I am freakin' 27 years old! That is stuff I should have done in my teens. I am bad at everything. I keep thinking suicide because I seriously can't think of anything positive about myself.
I'm disgusting.I weigh 140 right now and ive lost 20 pounds I know a lot of my weight is muscle but no matter what all I see is fat and it kills me insideMaybe I'll succeed in killing myself this time
well educated from top universities but cant get a job. no luck with job application. wasting my parents money.
I am an 24 year old guy that failed at almost everything, I failed my first and second year at college and quit three jobs because I hated it. I still life with my parents and are now unemployed. I always seem to make the wrong choices, I recently was diagnosed with major depression, but I just feel like im loosing all my knowledge and that God are punishing me as I keep on failing. I dont know what to do anymore, eventhoughh many people said I have potential even doctors and lecturers and teachers im not sure if Im good at anything. I need advice as im growing older.
Life hates me. But then again, who doesn't it hate?
First I would like to say what a f'n great web site. Wow! Well my most recent of a long list of many issues. Im constantly filled with misplaced rage and anxiety that is completely random. I have never been so constantly frustrated all the time. I have never been in such a dark place. Everyone I meet tells me how screwed up I am. All i think about is aweful crap all the time. Idk what the hall is wrong with me but it gets better somehow for mb 1 or 2 hours of the day. Where I feel incredible!! How do I just feel better more often and enjoy and appreciate what the world has to offer!!???!!!????
i am 17 and have severe mental disordersi have been medicated and working hard but lately i can feel my grip on everything slipping and falling into depression. i never could fully commit to killing myself cause i was too scared of what i might miss but now i wish with all my heart i had the guts to end it. everything is too hard and makes me feel inadequate. And when people tell me to work harder i get depressed because they don't realize the things they do without thinking that take me forever to overcome. i hate my life and know that i've caused everyone in it a lot of trouble. im sorry
appreciate life it may seem hard, but count your blessings
23 year old living with my mother, and it looks like I'm failing my college course for the 3rd time, I just have no direction or motivation in life, my life is going nowhere, I haven't accomplished anything and everything seems meaningless, the worst part is re-applying for the course again I don't want to deal with the embarrassment of facing the people there.I just don't know what to do.
35-year-old dude living with dad, otherwise I would be on the street.I have a 4-year college degree, got laid off from my job of six years out of college, and now get ignored or rejected for every job I apply for. Even Wal-Mart rejected me. I make enough to eat and drive around "working" (read: charity) for a family member, but have no money to do anything or go anywhere else.My student loans are compiling interest and collection fees faster than I can pay them off, which means I will grow further in debt for the remainder of my life.I've experienced no sex, no companionship, and no intimacy for the last dozen years ... and with my financial and living situation I will obviously never experience them again.I will never own a house or have a child to cheer on the soccer field, help with homework, or watch get married to the person of his/her dreams.I can't even remember the last time I was happy.I now understand why suicide is on the table for some people. Who would want to keep living like this?
22 year old female from Canada....... I feel like a failure. i want to die. I can no longer connect with someone on an intimate level. I try to date but there's no connection. I keep telling myself I'm okay, but I'm not. I fucked up. A lot. I try to live with myself everyday but it keeps getting harder. I want to give up. I can't sleep. I can't eat. Anti-anxiety meds don't help. I try to do everything I can. I keep pushing my family away and I lose my temper. I was never an angry person.... This world has made me so bitter. I hate the system. I hate courts. I hate the police. I hate the university I go to and everyone inside it. I lost my creativity. I used to love painting and drawing. Now whenever I try all that comes out are angry squiggles and I waste so much paint. I want to escape. I used to use drugs and alcohol, to deal with my life. Now I just feel empty. Hollow. Alone. I'm sick of music. I'm sick of TV. I'm sick of how this world works and how nobody does anything to try to make it better. I hate how greedy everyone is. I suppose I am too, complaining like this. But I keep pulling through. I keep trying. I've been fighting depression since I can remember. Must be something genetic. There were times where I was happy. I long for those times. Maybe one day I'll be happy again.
I'm an 18 year old Ukrainian living in the US. Constantly feeling depressed because I only have a few friends and have never been in a relationship. In my mind I know half of the relationships are bs when you are young, but I still wanted to at least have someone. Even now, people act as if I don't exist. Maybe it's the fact that I'm so socially awkward, paranoid and depressed at the same time...
When life gets you down tell yourself the glass is half full.
Wednesday, November 6 2013
I feel like the lives of everyone I've ever met (family included) would be significantly better off if they had never met me.
All I do is smoke weed all day. I am a complete disappointment to everyone in my life. They all have such high hopes for me, and I'm just going to let them down. I've never made my parents proud, and I think I should just roll over and die before I cause any more problems.
No friends. No job. No unemployment. Family is done with me. No boyfriend. Scared! Well educated. Never made nothing out of all this education. Always lived for right now. Now paying the price. Old. no retirement. Can't find a job. Wrote a book. Then 4 days later ended up in a 18-day hospital. First time I didn't just spring back to health. Scared to start my business. Just want to give up. Lay down and die. Tried everything for this business (well lots) but just don't believe in myself.
hi I am 18 male from India , like most of you i also failed , i have been failing in chemistry and maths for lyk last two years , i took these subjects because of my dad,he really wanted me to be an engineer but i am failing here only . i am not even healthy , i have pretty decent face and personality girls like me but there are only some , rest of all ...make fun of me as i am too much thiny , rest of all , i am an artist , i aspired to be a game artist , i wanted to create characters of video games . i have exceptional talent of art but its pitty that i cant utilize it becoz of my fathers dreams. i failed , i am depressed , left my gf for bieng unsuccessful , father wont support me in arts , but still have some hope just if my fathers says that just do arts , i will bring revolution in game industry ..
I've spent too much time of my life playing a game and I didn't get anything good with it. Now I unninstalled it and I see Im addicted...All that Ive done is so pointless.....
I am cursed with an irrational fear of people (crowed) and especially beautiful/hot girls.Now I gain admission into a university. I am used to living alone in a big house, now I have to share a room with SIX other younger guys. I am the oldest in my room (may be the oldest fresher).I stoped eating yesterday, I want to stave myself until I am too weak to have 'panic attacks'.I also desire to smoke but can't. On campus, they are many security, the only place I can smoke is a crowed bar & I'm an indoor person.I am seriously considering overdose.
A failure is what i am,I even fail at suicide. I thought i finally found something i was good at,but I failedagain.
Y is my ip address blocked? I've bn tryng 2 post my complaint but I keep getting the same irritating message
I just can't seem to get things to click. I haven't got a hard life, in fact I've drawn very lucky cards in that respect. The problem I have is difficult for me to put into words, but it is something very much like procrastination. No matter how many times I tell myself I will sit down and complete something, no matter how easy it is or how much time I have to do it, I just can't seem to get started. This issue is hurting me and, worse, those around me who have an emotional stake in how I perform. They say that I'm wasting my potential, throwing a major monkey wrench in my future prospects, and they just can't figure out why. What am I supposed to tell them? They keep asking me what's wrong, they ask me if I'm aware of all the people that I'm hurting with the poor decisions that I'm making. What am I supposed to tell them? Of course I realize the damage I'm causing, I don't know why I can't get myself to do anything. Maybe I'm just lazy. I tend to think that fairly often, really, what other explanation could there be? I just feel like I'm letting everybody around me down, and the feeling is completely warranted. The scariest thought to me is that this isn't something that I'll snap out of, that once I get to college all of the things I have and haven't done will catch up to me, and I won't be able to do what I need to do. Right now I'm able to get by, but I feel like keeping myself in this shell of apathy and fear of failure for so long is making me complacent. Maybe I'll stay this way forever, never quite putting the pieces together, not because I can't, but because I won't. I'm also gay, and while my parents don't dislike gay people, coming out is not a conversation that I am looking forward to, or planning to have for as long as humanly possible. I don't have trouble getting along with people, but I've never had a relationship because I haven't really had the chance. There have been girls here and there who have been interested, but I said no to them all. I'm worried that my youth will pass me by and I'll have been too busy shirking responsibilities and commitments to feel like I've had an accomplished life. Sometimes, I just really feel like I'm a failure.
Saturday, November 2 2013
I'm a 30 year old male who sucks at life. I have no job(got fired), no college degree(dropped out after 5 years) I am in major debt, I don't have a drivers license and I have no motivation to be anything to anyone and I just want to die. I hope I can summon up the strength to kill myself before it gets worse.
Thursday, October 31 2013
I only seem to have the ability to fail. I fail chemistry, biology, math you name it I can definitely fail at it. I can fail in music, history, math, computer science, spelling, my handwriting blows, I have little education and poor English skills, I can't even kill myself the right way. I stay up all night listening to voices and believing in spiritual aspects that are in no way relevant to real life. Mom and Dad, sorry you had to raise such a piece of shit.
i'm 24i want to diebut i love my cati can't trust anyonei don't know who i ami'm all alonei can't get it togetheri feel hideousthe world doesn't seem realbut it's real enough to hurt
When I'm happy the whole world seems to flip upside down and tell me everything I'm doing is wrong.
Wednesday, October 30 2013