its sad to think that the biggest mistake of my life was not killing myself when i was a teenager
I cant understand anything no matter how many times people tell me. I become sad because I fell like I'm stupid. I don't know how to fix it. How do I fix this?
I am pretty sure I am gay and the enviroment where I live right now, with my family is a really gay non-accepting place. I don't know what to do because I love them so much and I can't imagine not talking to them or having a bad relationship with them. I am also scared they kick me out of the house because I still depend on them to pay for everything. I wanna be myself but I don't want them to hate me. What do I do?
I'm a very poor girl because of many things happened in my life, so my family doesn't have any money. I always use old things and use them for a long time until they get damaged. I dont usually go to restaurants or drinking starbuck or watching movies at movie thearter or shopping because my family can't affford it. I have a job , but i have enough for car and buying some important stuffs to live and no more for other activities. Thus, i dont hang out with friends much because meeting friends always has to have party or go to restaurants or movies, etc., and i have denied so many invitations from friends. I feel so bad about myself... how can i do?
So sorry for my life. I am invisible. I'm a boring girl, an introverted girl, a shy girl, an ugly girl and low self esteem girl in a very poor family. I dont know what to do anymore.
Sorry in advance for the long post. I've got a lot to get off my chest. From what I've read in comments so far, I'm a bit older than most people writing here. I hated school because of the bullying. I'd get the crap kicked out of me by both boys and girls EVERY day from second grade until I started high school. The physical torment stopped then, but the social isolation began. I had not a single friend in high school. I'd have dropped out and done drugs--or some other escape--had my mom not been as strict as she was.But I did have one escape through early school: eating. I ate myself into becoming a giant pig. Because I had no friends and no social life, I got scholarships to college. About nine months before I started college, I joined a weight-loss center and lost over 150 pounds. I thought college would be a whole new life.I'm not going to bore everyone with the particulars, but suffice it to say that college was about the worst time in my life. I was surrounded by all these beautiful, fun, supremely sociable people who very, very clearly wanted nothing to do with me. My dorm had a library where we'd gather in the afternoons and evenings to do homework at these giant wooden tables. Wherever I sat, no one would even share the table...After my mom died, what tiny semblance of cohesion there was in my life, bound up in my feeling there was SOMEplace I belonged, unraveled. I found a therapist. She told me I should find something I like about myself. She suggested my hands. MY HANDS. Okaaaaay. And every therapist I saw during that period promised me that if I just got through another couple of years, my life would turn around.And that's really what brought me here today. I was thinking: every single month between the day I started college and NOW has been WORSE than the month before. All the "experts" tell you things will get better. That your problems are "just" temporary. That the error in supremely depressed people's thinking is that there is no end to the difficulty. Can I swear on this site? In case I can't, B-freakin'-S!!!!!!!!My life is one friggin' shyte-storm. And nothing I try to do to make it better EVER works. I finished school. I'm a "hard worker." I'm an awesome friend--loyal, selfless, compassionate, and sincere. And everyone treats me like toilet paper. I have no friends. I have no living relatives. And because I'm not good looking, I never get a decent job, despite hiring teams liking my resume. You can literally always see their disappointment when I arrive for the interview. They look shocked.Anyway. Why can't there be some legally and medically sanctioned painless, nearly-instant way for people like me who've failed at life just to leave? There are far, far, far too many human beings anyway. Imagine all the precious resources that could be spared if mistakes like me weren't around for decades, using up all those resources.Oh, one last thing. Over the last ten years I've saved every penny I earned after taxes and survival needs. It's easy, when you don't have a social life. I saved just over $100K. I thought I should start a company so I could leave a legacy for some organizations that matter a lot to me. I went into business with "a friend." I had all these legal documents drawn up, promissory notes, operating agreement--all signed and notarized. In the first three months of the business, the other person--who brought not a penny to the table--decided he wasn't being compensated fairly (50% of profits PLUS his own sales income) so stopped working, withdrew all the company funds, and stole all our inventory to sell for himself. Police and state attorney general won't do anything about it since the state wasn't affected and only about $125,000 was involved. So I lost my life savings. And I can't get a job. And I have no friends or family. And, worst of all, I'm so ugly I can't even travel to start over again since who the hell wants to be around me?We all know how this is going to play out.
my extended family wants me to fail.:(and i already did and they were so happy to hear I did.why is the world like thisI wish someone could care about me.
ok music is like more than half of my life and i've literally just given up on it yesterday,i had such a terrible day today the only thing i was thinking about was ridding myself music but i realized i'm always going to hum a song,im always gonna play an air guitar,i'm always gonna sing a song,im always gonna try to make another chiptune, even if it sucks i would just do everything i can to make it betterand im always gonna watch anime...:""")))))i know that i should get back to it and try not to give up like that again but i can't (i'm not gonna say why because its personal)and, i'm literally just...i mean i just fricken can't accept that but time always works and maybe i'll be happyAW SCREW THAT I DON'T NEED TO BE HAPPY>:(((*cries in a corner*sorry for wasting your time*
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Whatever you're going through, I've got it worse, in so many ways. Feel blessed for not being me, folks.
I cannot thank you enough for the article.Really thank you! Want more. Lattanzio
we all think the world is unfair. i feel like i envy everybody. then see these homeless and other less fortunate people... not gratitude but guilt and fear because they are potential futures. i have become my worst nightmare... defeated at life... losing hopes and meanings... fearful at the slightest challenges... anxious with other people and the future... my future is dim and dark... regrets barking at my back... godless and without moral i face the world with a mask... i am alone both metaphorically and literally... friendless is a word evoking worry and sorrow.... worthless and without respect... ugly in both body and soul... i am stripped of my choices... my world narrowed and shrinked...the world of masturbation offers a very cheap very easy escape but it will never even a fraction of enough... hell wait for me at the other side.... alone alone without pride... why should i try? why not slip the wrist or jump on the bridge i pass everyday... trapped trapped trapped powerless since the day i was born is this my fate?
I only have 3 exams left, and the closer I get to the end the lazier I get. I don't have any notes on one of my exams, so I'm screwed for that. I'm pretty sure I flopped my other exams, and every time my family asks me how it was, I reply with a mere fine. Results day is going to be hell!
I work hard to earn very little. I live alone in a small flat, but can't afford the bills. I earn too much to qualify for help. I don't have much of a social life because I can't afford to socialize properly. My flat is a mess pretty much all the time and I constantly procrastinate when I mean to do something about it. Having said all this, I still have a small group of friends both in my own country and abroad, so I'm grateful for that at least.I recently got invited to a friend's wedding in Florida. I didn't have a passport nor the funds to travel, so I had to decline. But another friend caught wind, and wouldn't take no for an answer. He paid for the passport, and paid for the flight. However, the passport application form was rejected twice due to countersignature problems. It turned a 4 week process into a 3 month one, during which time I was let down by several more people, but I finally got a passport two weeks before the flight. I then applied for something called an ESTA that lets me travel to the US without a tourist visa, but due to my medical history it got declined.So now I have to apply for a proper B2 Visa, which I can't afford, and I have to attend an interview that's after the flight.I've had to fight bureaucracy, depression, and finance to try and have this one nice thing happen and, despite how hard I've tried to get it sorted out, I still can't get what I worked hard to sort out, even when someone else pays for it.I've let my friends down, and it's not even my fault. I feel so pathetic.
i can't sleep at night. im too tired to search for jobs.
im so left out & left behind
I fucked up the easiest and simplest pasta recipe on Tasty. Now my pot is all burned and my pasta is all oily and cheesy and smells like feet.
Hey "poop" your life isn't great, because you looked up this website. Your name is poop ffs, that's probably representative of your life enough.
My life is great and reading you guys' sob stories makes it better, thanks for the laughs!
my ex gf is pregnant i never even got to kiss her because im an ugly worthless piece of sht 22 yr old virgin faggt. Its kinda funny the first week we break up she finds a guy to fck gets pregnant and now wants to merry him. we were together for a year and never even kissed goes to show what a disgusting low life i am.
so today was the last day of school. thanks to this website i have done absolutely nothing this entire year in studyhall. I appreciate the distraction, and thank you. Adios my fellow failures
goodbye. but it doesn't really matter because in truth i was never here at all. i seemed to appear as a shadow in other peoples minds but that was all. i was never really here. bye
Everything I've ever touched has turned to crap, minus the stench. At 48,I've tried things, but the one constant is failure. I'd like to die, and, unlike others, I can't wait to die. If you see me passed outsomewhere, please don't do anything. I suck at everything. While I don't begrudge others their success, I wish I knew how to do something other than fail. I wish all of you the best.
I'm 18 and I never had a girlfriend so I have to use porn everyday. I have a shit job in mcdonalds working in the back washing dishes cleaning floor bathroom disgusting stuff and my boss yelled at me many times. My stupid parents always bossing me around telling me what to do and never listens to me. My life sucks
i have anxiety disorder and i feel extremely nervous around peple...and i can't control. It makes people hate me because they dont know i have that disorder, and they hate me because i act so weird....people hate me, i hate my life, i hate myself. I'm a failure too...i wanna kill myself. Why my character is like that...i'm 22,,,,what can i do for the rest of my life...:((
i am loved but i do not feel lovedi have the ability to be smarter but i do not have the will to live
I am failing math and science in year 10 and my parents are about to kill me. I want to go to art school, so amth and science won't apply for me so why am I supposed to care? But they give me crap about it all the time
I'm 31 and I have lung cancer, only few months left to live but I'm happy now because I'm alive now =)
I am seventeen years of age and I believe I am a failure. I have done nothing to contribute to society and my own being. I am obese, idiotic, annoying, lazy, and a ton of other negative words. I feel like my life is worthless and everyone is doing better than me. Well, I will try to push on but in the end I know I will be a homeless bum. Sorry family, I know I have failed you. :(
I am just shut in on year 9 and Im terrible at most subjects except 2 and those 2 I have no Idea what I'm doing right I just don't try there and get good grades which scares me of not being able to actually get an a. I have not learned anything since year 6 in anything other than New subjects. I feel like I'll fail my exams and I cant get anything right. I have no idea what job I'm getting because I just want something easy and pays well I don't know what I'm going to do ever .
i know noone will read this but since there is nothing else i can do im just going to post it.. I don't get it. i don't get why everybody just doesnt kill themselves. i see people smile but i know that there happiness is in there own imagination. would you believe me if i told you that i never once felt real joy in my entire life? im 22 years old and i wanted to kill myself since i was 7. i stayed alive for the sake of others. yet they still arent happy so whats the point. ive been searching for a reason to live my whole life and all ive found were more reason why to hurl myself into unconsciousness. please tell me why live? theres only pain everything in this life leads to pain relationships, love,passions, ego its all painful i just don't get it i don't get why everybody isnt killing themselves. i hear of people becoming pregnant and i break down in tears because i can truly and honestly say i wish i was never born.i wouldnt wish this life on anything. I just don't get any of it. survive for what? for more pain? more suffering? more fear. why is everyone surviving. im going to undo this life and im not going to feel guilty about it.
Reading some of this posts here,i dont feel like you know what the site is about. 80% are complaiming about shit that are small or easy to fix. Damn.Anyway,i fail at life. Literally. I had vocal lessons for over a year and i cant hit the right notes. I had the german degree exam,and i failed. I also failed my driving licence test so i gave it one more go and my parents paid extra just fot the second time. ALl my teachers and all the people around me are either lying for me or helping me get where i should go. I just suck. At everything. I dont wanna suicide or anything,but i feel horrible. I guess im gonna be the same old broken fucked up person i always was.
I really need to stop posting here. It's pointless. But I'm addicted to this sh*t.Anyway...my life is a boring waste. No one likes me except for ugly, boring people like myself. I even tried adding some girl from my work on Facebook but she didn't accept it and made it so that I am not able to add her again. It's strange because in person she seemed cool. I guess not. My ugliness turns all things away from me. For some strange reason all the people I like are so hard to get a hold of. They are always away or gone, but the people I couldn't care less about are always around me as if some force is trying to get me to be with them. Every girl I like is already married or has a boyfriend. Everything has already been claimed by others. There's nothing left for me. Sad, sad, sad life.
If I have a choice, I wish I were not exist. I'm such a waste in tnis world. The only thing I have is my parents and my sister and my brother. They love me unconditionally. But I'm a waste, and I can't do anything in my life. I'm such a waste in society
I got a 99 on my solo and I was super excited because it is the highest score i've ever gotten, and I'm a really good player. But my horrible band teacher told me i didn't deserve that score and it wasn't "a true adjudication of my abilities" and that i should have scored less. He then told me for my playing exam that I have to play with smartmusic (the lazy teacher's program) so it would "cover me up". Hmm, maybe that's why i want to quit.
happy survive everyone ^^
my ex gf turned me gay. she refused to give me physical intamacy fkn btchh all i wanted was a kiss and then i got mad at her didnt text her for 2 days and in those 2 days she lost her virginity to a 30 yr old guy oh and she was only 17 fkn bitch i just wanted a kiss. and then she says its cause i wasnt forceful enough like wtf? if i knew she wanted me to be forceful i wouldve raped the shit out of her watever now im a gay virgin cus nothing matters anyway fck it
i'm sleep deprived and stuck in school. I'm going crazy. Everyone around me is suicidal, depressed or cutting and i feel like its my job to fix it. I have my own issues but i don't want to abandon them. It all just getting a bit too much. HALP!
i am in school and have no food and i have another like 10 hours to go HALP
All are conspiring against me. Friends, family, etc. All are against me. I feel like they have something they didn't like in me. Or they didn't like me in whole and tries to hide it to make me suffer. They make feel like i belong then belittle me slowly. I know i'm worthless as i have nothing to show to them that will make them think that i am something to them. I'm a laughing stock, a hotheaded easily teased person. Also it makes me look like im too dumb to understand what they know. In addition to this, im unlucky. All moments that i want to happen, something bad will happen. Or it just makes me taste a little happiness then it takes it back quickly and gets more than it gave me. Is anyone feeling the same? What do you do to this to survive everyday life?
I AM GAY AND I LIKE TO SUCK DICK ALSO I WAS A ACCIDENT AND I WAS ADOPTED BY GAY PARENTS WHO ENDED UP MOLESTING ME AND I WAS RAPED AND HAD TO GO TO THE ER BECAUSE MY ANUS WAS BLEEDING AND I GOT RECKED
I think Bhumibol Adulyadej is an idiot. Even as an old man he kept on sexually molesting chickens. How can someone has so much wealth and power and still get all butthurt about statements made on the Internet. Bhumibol Adulyadej is too primitive to be alive in this day and age, people like that are oxygen thief.
I guess I just thought things would turn out better.I know there are people in my life that love me. My siblings and my parents, especially my dad, have always been extremely supportive of me. I've always managed to make good friends, I've had a different core friend group in grade school, high school, and college. My friends' parents have always liked me, and teachers have always liked me. I'm a 19 year old virgin who's never had a girlfriend, but I've had girls admit to liking me or send me obviously flirty messages or even tell me they want to have sex with me and I've either ignored their obvious flirtation/advances or turned them down every time. For some reason, I can't stop hating myself. I hate my body, I hate my personality, I hate the decisions I've made in life, and I hate the decisions I know I'm going to make. I hate the fact that it's been my choices that put me in the situation I'm in, and that it's going to be my choices that put me in future situations. I always feel like people that say they like me don't really like me, or that they won't like me if they get to know me a little better. I want to tell someone how I feel about these things, and I know they'll listen, and maybe they won't disown me, but I know there's nothing they can say to me or do for me that will help me anyway.I can't say that I want to die, but I'm sure I don't really want to live anymore.
i feel like i have to work extra hard to be where everyone else is ateveryone else gets A's and success and money and happiness and popularity with no effort and it takes so much effort for me to do the average
-They don't sell cupcakes on this website-I was born-I cannot plait my hair anymore-I turned my boyfriend gay
I am almost 30 and still live with my parent. How did it happen? I don't know. How do I become independent? I still do not know because I can't find a job that pays... I work all day and still have nothing. My gadgets are all over a year old and they were all gifts (someone else bought them for me). I am so poor that when you see me, you know am broke (even when I wash and iron my cloths)... Why is it difficult for me and seemingly easy for others? If could be rich for a month and die, I would take that deal because I can't die a loser. I don't want people to say I was a waste, I wish people would assume I was successful and would be more successful had it been I was alive. Now the pressing issue is getting out of my dad's house. God, I need a real income.
am sitting 4 the final exams this year nw am trying to study but i cant understand nd i cant study bt i want to pass my exams wife flying colours.wht shud i do.
i don't even care about happiness anymore i just wish ive never existed i wish existence never existed
five years ago i was 17 and i made the worse decision of my life i decided to seek help and stay alive instead of killing myself and it was the worst decision ive ever made. If there was one thing i could go back and change i wouldve killed myself years ago. everyday i relive the same mistake by not committing suicide
i failed a subject, and i got givenb extreme hate for it. and i got given another one in the same context and gave a draft to a teacher and he completely deleted it all and made me re-start again. just feeling like a failure, as always. breaking down in the middle of a class is always beautiful
I don't know when the right time is to give up. I can't keep trying to get a girlfriend and escape isolation forever. I'm already 21 and have never even went out on a date or hung out with anyone. Soon, I'll get older and older and by then I'll be some old guy that's alone without anyone. Time is running out. I hate when people say, "oh you'll find someone one day...they are out there somewhere" or "just be patient, you're still young." Psh yeah right. Just admit it, I'm ugly, talentless, strange, out of shape, useless, and will die alone. My parents always said how proud they were of me because I kept to myself and never smoked or did drugs, but I don't think they know how much I hate myself. They said to me "good things come to those who wait."I think they are wrong on that part. I've waited for 20 years. How long will I have to wait? Forever? How come others are so fortunate and get the girl they want and are sociable, while I sit here alone in self loathing madness?
I was a very intelligent kid at school but after 12 I have no career I did not got admission in any college neither I have cancelled this year ..I don't study I keep on crying I am fedd up my parents hate me because I lay down in bed whole day....
Friendzoned and failing at life
Please check whether you have adhd/depression. This might help you deal with yourself a bit more compassionately and productively. Please do not give up.
I fail at everything I do. I failed at being a daughter. Sister. Wife. Mother. Now I am failing in my career. Why? I cry all the time. I become numb. I never do things right. I try and try but it's no use. I pray to God to make me disappear. I don't even feel like I deserve hell nor heaven for that matter. Why do some people succeed and others fail? Why can't we all be happy. I ask the father. Why are you allowing me to live why don't you just let me die.
it happen again. im tired being such a loser. low self-esteem was driving me crazy, geez its really suck.
im simply not fit for adult life
Hello I'm 21 female I've always been a respectful child till today but I struggle to move forward I'm still at school and I'm scared that I will fail again,I sometimes think that God doesn't care I pray,study hard but nothing
Marriage #2, yet another failed attempt. Tried hard to find someone, he loves me, but not my kids, his are spoiled, smart on paper only. If I had only given myself time to be alone and live only for my kids I would have seen how much happier I'd have been. Now I'm miserable, we argue almost every night, I cry almost as often without his knowledge. What a wasted life. You only live once and I've screwed mine up the whole way.
I sat here after coming from work where I am in love with a girl who is in love with someone else. I only talk to her on Facebook because in person I'm quiet as hell. I told her that and I guess she accepts it. She barely talks to me now. I think I scared her away like a big ugly monster. Now I'm here at home, laying on the floor and staring at the wall. No one messages me. No one texts me. Nothing. If I died at this second, no one would know. Even at work everyone else loves that girl and even some old white guy said he likes when the girl does deliveries because she's cuter than me. duh, fag , of course she is, I'm ugly. So I'll never have a chance with her or anyone else. I think that there's some type of disorder in my life. Somewhere and at some time, something got messed up. Maybe I started on life late or maybe I wasn't social enough when I was younger. I'm too quiet. Even my mom said it. Truth is...what do I talk about? Random stuff? The weather? I'll never talk about my emotions as they are too complex and it will just mess things up. There's nothing to talk about. I wish I could tell my love how much I adore her, but she'll think I'm even uglier and creepier while her bf sits and laughs with her.
grades are dropping. no motivation for academics, sports, extracurricular's, and just school in general. constantly yelled at by my mom about how much of a failure i am. she's right, though.
I could be everything that i wanted to be. But im too lazy too realize that.
all will come to a point when they realize there is no hope in the world and no hope in your personal life. many people have seen this and killed themselves but this realization is also the opportunity to let go of all that you think you know and learn the truth about life. do you want to be a dieng insect? meaningless and to small to notice? a lonely mind that is a cruel joke cut of from all creation?? Please before you kill yourself look for the truth and ask what lies beyond this life of death, this universe of darkness, this void of empty space. What lies beyond? what was never created? and can never be destroyed? don't kill yourself yet....try to find the truth. the least you can do is try. There must be sum hope somewhere
Basically we can blame our parents for everything because they're the ones that made us.
Fuck it I gambled the rest too. Why? I was sexually abused as a child and addiction makes me feel better. Temporarily. I'm going all the way to bankrupt town....and I know it.
its me vs the world and i aint winning
I feel as if I fail at everything and anything I do. Even when I put my mind to it and push to succeed, I get knocked down, never to rise back up again. I keep thinking of suicide because this world would just be better without me in it.
im 24. sick of my life. no social life. no boyfriend. no motivation. feeling lazy all the time.
I alwayz fail in my life i dnt want to live this kind of life.nd i hate myself so much
The girl I like, shot me down, I'm a wuss.
i can't believe it once again i chickened out and didnt kill myself when i knew that killing myself was the best option. and now since i didnt do it i have to suffer. morbid fear, pain untill the next time i know again that killing myself is the only answer and again i chicken out just to suffer more. why do i keep doing this? week after week year after year. why cant i just commit suicide already. theres nothing here for me nothing but pain. even god would look upon my life and say "child kill yourself, be free from this prison of fear"
Theses this dude sitting next to me and he wont stop touching my computer goddammit cole
It's earth day the perps are after you gang stalking you so save the planet and kill yourself.
SAME I HAVE THAT MATH TEACHER PROBLEM TOO (INCLUDING THE TESTS) I need to disappear now.....
survive, survive, survive, survive, survive...deaaaaaaaad
I have a math teacher who is absolutely crazy and we have a whole bunch of tests coming up on topics i just dint understand
People only talk to me because they pity me. I'm ugly and quiet and they feel like if they don't talk to me, I'll just sit in black silence for days or kill myself. They are kinda right, actually. Sometimes I await messages from certain people. I just sit in my dark empty room all day waiting while they talk to numerous people. Then when they message me I must wait to reply so that I Don't appear to be so lonely. Being an ugly human being is difficult. People just feel so sorry for me when they look at me. They just think, "he's slow, ugly, short, and weird. There's nothing good about him. Poor guy. He must contemplate suicide on a daily basis."
Yep.......I just gambled away half of my life savings, I guess you could call me vulnerable. I would say I'm in the best position to give advice now tho having done it.....do not do it. jackass.
What would you do if you were ugly as hell and failed at everything and had crippling social problems?
And now, they have taken me out of my violin class - something I loved to doI don't think I can take it anymore.(REGARDING previous POST)
My parents are always trying to make me something I'm not. They are loving parents - most of the time. I honestly think I've become an emotionless person thanks to them though. Every time I get an insult (or get hurt, etc) from somebody (not just them), I am not even affected. I never cry - I WAS NEVER LIKE THIS BEFORE. I'm 13 now, but I've though about suicide since I was 12.But I think this was the last straw - My parents enroll me in a ton of classes (I appreciate it) and I love every single one of them. It's not like we are rich or anything either. BUT THEN THEY ENROLLED ME IN TAEKWONDO - I HATE IT. For about 6 months I thought ' Why not? I'll probably like it later...' But I still hate it. I told my parents and they freaked out. They said I don't appreciate anything that they do and my dad said I was a failure at life. And it didn't hurt one bit (BTW, this is even more proof that I've become emotionless). But I am broken inside. I am going to high school next year but I am not sure I'll make it. Also, I am a straight A student.Please help, or I may not be able to take it anymore...
it still hurts you can't do anything to stop this from happening. to start, someone is leaving or so i think, she became a special part of my life even we only talked for a few days. she's the only one i talked to and smiled as we share our life's problems and craziness. it seems that this is not a problem for the ones who really fail at life but still it is a failure. a failure to please someone you like, failure to accept that she didn't really like you the way i liked her. as i woke up this morning, i still feel the pain or a question that is still in my mind, "is this the end of our little start?", "is she avoiding me for forever?", "can't she tell me the whole story or even the truth as i have told mine?". so anyone reading this, help me. i can't seem to just erase her out of my system.
I'm in the ib program please help me I want to die.
if ever i can reset my life, i wished i've done all the things that everyone has told me. they seem right by now. i am a talentless person, in everything that i try, i didn't excel. you could say that i know things but really i don't or i just pretend to be. if writing this would make someone happier or less alone, then thanks but i don't seem to like it. i say to God i'm sorry but this is useless. no one would like a depressing novelist, everyone is looking for a way to be happier. what is sadder than this is that everyone is expecting something from me then they get slightly angry by the time they know i can't do anything. in addition, of all the girls that i love or will love, i think they are looking for something that will make them standout from the rest and be proud they have me as boyfriend. i'm also skinny type of a person that can't protect myself in harm. i'm getting older. time is slipping and everyone is taking one step farther than me while i stayed here finding what i really am, what is my purpose. every second passes by goes to waste but i can't do anything good for now or forever. now i bid everyone farewell.
I wish I lived somewhere dark, cold and empty. My mind state is always in sorrow and sadness. This bright sunshine doesn't help, it only worsens the situation. It's hard to pretend To be happy around my family. They see nothing wrong with me being 21 and having never had a friend or girlfriend. I sit in sadness every day because I know that I will be alone, wallowing in my own terminal sadness, until the day I die. I fall in love with girls that only speak to me every so often and already have their boyfriend. I can't speak...I am silent and it's painful. I try to talk, but it's like someone is holding me hostage telling me not to break out of my monotonous silence. Love is essential to the human spirit, but I will never feel it the way it should be felt. I will be alone forever, without end. When I am dying one day I will think back on my life of sadness and regret everything. Other people on there are with the love of their lives with their children...and there are others out there kissing the girl of their dreams in such paradise. I've never kissed a girl. Last time I hugged a girl was when I was 14 at my 8th grade promotion. I'm 21 now. That's proof that some people are destined a life of hell. I am talentless, stupid, ugly, boring, weird, and ignorant. There nothing a woman in the right mind would see of interest in me. I can't wait until I'm alone later so I can cry and cry and cry until I fall asleep. I'm also very unhealthy, poor, and weak. I can't break my silence. It's a part of who I am. I don't know why I'm like this. I will never know. But, my life is of no meaning or value. In a hundred years I'll just be some tombstone in a meadow of leaves and no one will ever know my sorrow. I won't kill myself...but I accept my fate; misery, pain, sadness, unquenched yearning for love, loneliness, and eventual death. My one and only life was lived this way. I yearn for blackness, devoid of emotion so that tears will never seep through my eyes again. God...I beg you with all my heart. Help. You know what I need. Help. I beg you.
Hi, ever since the age of 12 I thought about suicide. My parents call me a failure every single day of my life and when I started high school I got called a failure by all my class mates. When someone says some thing like that, you normally try to prove them wrong. Could I? Well no because I am good at nothing.I have never got over 90% on an exam.I have never been the best at anything(Not even the top 5)I am not sportyThere is nothing special about me.I deserve to die
"The only people that want me alive is my family" At least the like you. I have no friends no family that like me
I live here on this site. It's my secret world to go to when I start to hate myself again. I will always wonder why I am incapable of the most simplest things and why I can't communicate like a normal person. Usually people are either born hideous or ugly/unattractive but are brilliant and smart and that makes up for what they lack. Others are unattractive AND stupid with no talent, but they are at least funny and talkative/easy to get along with. I have none of those. I am ugly, ignorant and talentless and I am not funny and I am poor without money. I simply exist for no reason. The only people that want me alive is my family, but if they didn't want me I'd just kill myself or let myself die or try to find a way to end it - at least that's what I think I'd do. Truth is, I'm probably too much of a coward to do that. So here I am, without a love. Without someone to love me. I am without passion and without companionship. I will never witness the beauty in life. I have tried so hard. I try to play instruments, but I am talentless and slow. I try to write, but I am ignorant in that aspect too. I try to paint, but I am horrible at it. Everything I try, I fail. All I do is comfort others and give them hope, but they just say thanks and continue with others and forget all about me. I know that someone is probably going to reply something such as "go kill yourself with bleach and so and so...." and I expect that. I don't know what to do with the rest of my life. These desires are strong and will break my already shattered heart into microscopic sadness. I fail at life...exactly what this site is for...
I am a scar by Steven BarryI am a scarPeople notice me and I stand outA symbol of life experiencesI am a scarOften trying to hide from othersPainful or embarrassing at first then you get used to meI am a scarA mark for the rest of your life, like it or notCreated by knifes, razors, or physical changesI am a scarThe reason for people to judge youThe reason for people to avoid youI am a scarI am also an inarticulate dumb ass.
I tried everything to get picked at some of the Universities. I am currently in a long term relationship, and my girlfriend is studying abroad at one of the said universities. Even my siblings are studying thereI don't know how long I can hold on to everything. I wonder if my girlfriend or even my family sees me in the same light they once did. I feel so empty and lost that even my grades have started falling.Though I am doing better than some of my mates, I still believe I've failed everyone I love, and I failed at life.
a close friend of mine is addicted to eating baby bells, she eats at least 65 a day, shes losing control and has even gone to a first school and stole all the baby bells from the lunch boxes of children. shes so addicted she has made wallpaper from the wrappers and her bed is in the shape of a baby bell and she has a matching duivet and curtain set.pm for more details
hi guys, I need to vent... lolim basically a failure at life init so basically got my geog mock (unit 3 btw) at 12pm, kmn fml lmfaosomeone gellp me polease I cant crontoel my shaking I cant weven tpe helpppppppp
I'm a 26 yr old white male, single father. I work 50 hrs every week just to pay bills and buy food and gas. I've failed to succeed and have resorted to moving back home to my mom's, for the third time. ..26 yrs old, 5 yr old child, living with mom.. Although I work overtime, I can't seem to save enough to make a difference in our lives. I fear my child senses the shame when he asks me why he doesn't have his own bedroom, why we live with Grandma, and why can't we go places (vacation).I skip meals so he doesn't have to. My mom is struggling to support her and my brother, so I feel obligated to help her out any chance I can... Every month minimum payments get higher. And every day my body and mind become more drained. I'm failing at life, but feel it was intended to be this way. No matter how hard I try, I'm set two steps back. .... How is continuing this going to help?? Or how do I change something, without risking everything for a worse outcome..
I'm a highschool with good grades and I've been blessed, but my senpai Kaito won't notice me. I'm secretly Sailor Moon by moonlight, and ditzy teenager by day light. MY BOYFRIEND IS DEAD AND SO ARE ALL MY FRIENDS BECAUSE OF OMEGA FLOWEY.
I fail to do the simplest things in life and I don't know why I find them so difficult when everyone else seems to manage them.
I always irritate my parents. My mom committed suicide because of me. I am depressed. I want to die.
I am an overaged graduate student who now shows nothing of the promise others once (certainly mistakenly) saw in him. Worthless, empty accolades aside, I have squandered every opportunity afforded me: I cannot publish my work, and I am an embarrassment to myself and my colleagues. I want to die and be forgotten...
I am depressed. I am on the verge of losing my job and going bankrupt. I am married and have 2 young kids. I want to kill myself. Can anyone save me.
I am an angel of the Lord and I need help. I have been working with these two humans for a few years now and I can't get the older one to ask me out. I really care about him. His name is Dean Winchester. He helped save the world! Help me.
I am literally Death himself. If I try to kill myself it won't work. Maybe you homies can help me out. Contact my four Bros, please.
I am an insect. They say I may bee an amazing basketball player. I am Kobee Obrian.
Be aware of the self fulfilling prophecy. If you believe you are worthless, you will make it so. If you believe life is truly great and worth living, you will make it so. If you believe you can do well in life, you will make it so. Change your mind, change your life.
The confu panda is a loser, but that loser became good at what he loves that he became the Dragon Worrier.
I would like to die. I am weak , powerless , incapable. A failure. I cannot help the people I care about. I am a failure. But I can't give up , my pain is nothing compared to what everyone goes through. A child dies every 3 second out of hunger in our world. I feel numb , I do not feel anything. I want everything to end, but it won't do
My proble? Everything. Including some of the people on here.
too much pain... the pain of my life.... i only feel hurt.... ..:((
I'm Busisiwe Hadebe i loose everytime when i'm trying to do things in right direction,now i don't know whats to do beacause i can't even keep a little job i found and i'm verry sensitive maybe i don' t know how to work with people but i think i'm the real problem,i don't nkow,coz every time i quit
hey for all you suffering, I just smoke till I cant see. good luck and never live a sober life! too much PAIN!
I fail. I can't make it happen. I just fail. I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't know why I can't do simple things. Why I can't focus. Why I can't just be normal. Sometimes I would give up every bit of creativity just to be normal and self-sufficient and boring, just so I can stop aching and hating myself.
Hello, am 30 I have tried almost everything but no success. I have a disability I can't walk properly my parents died when I was young I grew up with my grandmother it was so hard for me to go to school. I got my boyfriend when I was twenty five together we had a daughter when he got alot of success he left me and married some one else. I found a job in a law firm I've been working for five years but they don't pay me and about to be thrown out on the streets no rent I've tried to look for a job but have failed
i just want a friend. please. anyone. nobody ever talks to me and i don't know why. it really hurts. i feel like i'm invisible. someone say something, please.
Lol, sometimes I wonder what this strange force is. Words can never explain it. It's this strange force against me. Everyone thinks I'm crazy when I tell them, but this force is with them too...they just don't react to it and it isn't as strong with them. They say life's purpose is to multiply. But, I'm too much of an ugly person to attract any attention. I'm ugly as f*ck. Lol, how the hell can someone like that find someone to reproduce with? I'll never find anyone to love. Here in solitary, cold blackness I will be. I'm so ugly that I cannot ever go into daylight. I can't look anyone in the eyes. I'm out of shape, too...haha I'm a f*cking sloppy mess. Everyone I know hates me. At work people are nice to me only because they know I'm ugly as f*ck and that if they aren't nice to me it'll break my heart. I'm talentless...I like to do certain things, but I fail at them each time I try. I'm short as f*ck...my vision is bad...I don't even know how to drive...ive never had a girlfriend if you haven't f*cking noticed by now. So this is what I am: a talentless, half-blind, ugly, short, out of shape, poor, useless, dumb, loveless, sexless failure. If that's not bad, I don't know what is, hahaha. Ahhh....what a joke my life is. Sometimes I look at baby pictures of myself and laugh, because it's just kinda funny as f*ck how I would grow up to be so ugly and damn loser-like. Bye fag*got!!! :)
I don't know wat I m alive for I have no aim no goals. But as per principal of this world I dreamed for a average paying job not high paying job as I don't deserve that. I dreamed for love,it was with me for a while later she left. I m growing old and my parents are old too. One day they both will leave, again as per rules of nature and I will be left alone.I wake up everyday and wonder what is this world about. Who are these human beings? You might say kill yourself. I would say Lol 😊 Thanks for reading
I need money. no respect for the poor. I wish I could find someone who would buy my kidney, an eye, or some other body part. I wish I could find a drug dealer that I can serve for a short time and earn some money. I have job but honestly, at the end of the month, I save nothing. all my salary is used for food and transport (I only eat once a day). if I knew life would be this frustrating, I would have died of fear in my mothers womb.how can I get my act together.
I've been depressed for 42 years.
I have a 40k euro loan on my head which i think i cannot repay before 5 yearsAnd i don't think I'll fit in the job I'll have to do to pay this back
the only thing i regret in my life is not killing my self years ago. i feel like such a idiot for continuing to live
Avoid the grocery store at all costs it has these shitty foods:White Flour.Refined Sugar.Soy/Lethin.Processed meats. You don't need to eat meat. Raw oats have plenty of protein.Homogenized hormonized milk.Hot Dogs.Eggs/Yogurt = Kidney Stones.All dairy meat and flour = Cancer and death.White Bread.Peanut Oil.HFCSSucraloseNutrasweet.MSG.Chemicals of any type.Aspartame.Fluoride.Instead Meditate, sun gaze, fast, drink ozonated water and urine, eat colostrum from nature.
I suck. My lifeless life sucks, I don't feel anything anymore. It's blank completely. I can't see a way. I'm so effing useless, god definitely made a mistake by making me.
Here's an encoded suicide method.aHR0cDovL2FsdC5zdWljaWRlLm1ldGhvZHMubmFya2l2ZS5jb20vd25NdDVMQTUvY28yLWRyeS1pY2Utc29kYS13YXRlci10aGUtY2hlYXAtc2ltcGxlLWVhc3ktYWNjZXNzLXN1aWNpZGU
Thinking of suicide?Carbonated Soda.Plastic Bag.Zip Ties.Baking Soda, Salt, Sugar, alaseltzer, rollaids.Do it pussy.
dry ice, hot water on rag, plastic bag, die you fag
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Declined. Foreclosed. Overdrafted. Bankrupt. Depressed. I quit.
I'm laying here alone although I'm married. He's sleeping on the couch - again. Is it the weight I've gained? Is it our mattress? Is it that he isn't attracted to me? I'm lonely. He has a fake profile he uses on social media to solicit naked photos and pics of feet. I don't mind fetishes or porn, but the solicitation of photos is personal interaction and I hate it. He used to tell me I had perfect breasts...now they sag and are uneven. He used to love to play with me and just look...now it's a jungle surrounded by so much thigh it's frightening. I joined a gym. I hated it. I started getting up early, putting on workout clothes and going to the donut shop. I do not feel pretty anymore.
I am sorry ...but i can't take it anymore my whole life is a burden ....
It is my sincerest hope that all of you get what you want from life. Just be happy. Don't worry about anything at all except living the life you want for yourself.
Wow! This website is very morbid! Although I imagine it is nice to vent. I'm sure all of you lead your own lives in your own ways... This is a way of sharing with no one at all just Why you feel a little sad or angry today. I for one am just passing through. Total anonymity.I honestly don't know if I can keep at it anymore.