Read the Quran its a gift given to us humans who were created by Allah,its an answer to all youre questions and everything that exists between earth and space,believe in the judgment day,Allah's forgiveness and mercy is endless if you really regret.youre sins. Free the beautiful earth from the greed,power and all the evil.life on earth is temporary,the true eternal life begins in the beyond
I'm 29, only had 3 jobs in my life, this last job I had I got fired because I was absent a lot for getting sick (legitimately sick, going to the hospital and all). I don't have a drivers license because I'm too scared to drive. I have two kids that I love very much, but feel like they deserve a better mother than me. I don't trust my husband because he's good looking and I'm short, fat, and extremely ugly (I've been told all my life from many people that I was ugly and my husband has no standards that's why I believe he's with me). I hate myself for being a failure. I failed at having a job after going back to work after having two children, I have absolutely no friends to talk to or hang out with at all where I live. I'm stuck at home all the time while my husband works and on his days off he either has homework to do or goes out doing the hobby he loves. I constantly cry and put on a fake smile and pretend everything is ok because I don't like pity and it's so hard and it's starting to hurt keeping everything bottled in. I can't tell my dad I lost my job because he will just call me a failure and stupid, which in reality, I really am stupid. I hate myself so much and wish I could go back in time and change my life around so I would have a career that I love first, then have the family life later instead of doing it all backwards. Then maybe I wouldn't be such a huge failure. I just had to get all these feelings and thoughts off my chest because bottling them up is becoming too much.
A series of true different colours is programmed in the display, and the transmission quick through spots
I fucked my the pork crackle... pork was great but the crackle was shit. my life if over
Whats wrong with me? I'm not doing well in engineering studies. I get much lower grade than others. I don't know what will happen to me. My past is full with mistakes. I lost many friends. I'm very unlucky too. I'm not social. My best friend is ignoring me suddenly. Nobody cares for me. I fail at life till now. I'm afraid i'll fail at life totaly. What will happen to me?
The future is spotless. The past may be dirty but the future still is spotless. Walt Disney had no formal degree. Failure is not the end of life. All of us who have failed know this some where in our hearts. But the process of healing and finding a new you is the real pain. And we mistake this pain for failure. Rather this is that phase, which is shaping us to be more courageous. Aim for things that we thought we would never achieve. Broaden our ambition than contract it.You dont get what you wish for, you get what you work for. Hence, I think we must never stop with our failures. The time we fail may go really slow. Sometimes even feel like hiding ourselves from the world. Might want to disappear. But i believe, we all have weaknesses and are vulnerable to mistakes. and at some point we are bound to fail. No body can we that i have never screwed up, or that i have never hurt anyone. And the guilt stays with us,,sometimes it feels like forever. You wish that we have an eraser..so that we could wipe out our faults..or atleast wipe out ourselvs.but then you know that cant happen. But what can be done is to maintain a spotless future by doing the right. or atleast by hoping to elect the right course. you know when you strive to do something good...the universe automatically aligns the right things for you. But like i said in the beginning, you dont get what you wish for so you get what you work for.So folks , moral of the story is, this is your life..you are writing your own story. You can either just sit and wish for a happy life. Or get up and proclaim your future and rebuild it. Infact build it taller and stronger than before.
Read the Quran its a gift given to us humans who were created by Allah,its an answer to all youre questions and everything that exists between earth and space,believe in the judgment day,Allah's forgiveness and mercy is endless if you really regret.youre sins. Free the beautiful earth from the greed,power and all the evil.life on earth is temporary,the true eternal life begins in the beyond
I'm just fully negged out all the time :/
Read the Quran its a gift given to us humans who were created by Allah,its an answer to all youre questions and everything that exists between earth and space,believe in the judgment day,Allah's forgiveness and mercy is endless if you really regret.youre sins. Free the beautiful earth from the greed,power and all the evil. life on earth is temporary,the true eternal life begins in the beyond.
I am such a failure. I can't get a job. My marriage has failed. I have no friends. I don't know how to get out of this prison that is my life.
go to gizoogle. it will enlighten you. forget all of your failures (there are a lot of you out there). later losers
i fail at my life . i am failed again in test. i dere to go?dont wanna study more. where to go ? dont know. life has closed all ways.nothing is for hope. i cant live anymore with such failiuers....
I failed in physics 12 board today..... Great feeling rather never felt greater...... My fav subject was physics I loved it . I always got lost studying it but this was till I was in class 10. The day i entered 11 everything changed . First lecture we are told to cram methemetical tools i.e. calculus , binomial, graphs, limits and log .Nobody in this stupid nation knows a thing about science. Education is sold here . A privilege for the riches. Stupid tuition centres everywhere. Everyone lost in greed .No doubt there is not a single person in this country to receive International recognition for the last 15 odd years .
I was in matric last year I faid 3subject
Lol I dont knw how to start I hav so many regrets....I wanted to be an astranaut, my dream got broken when I forcefully took commerce stream after 10th grade than I thought I wd prepare well and score goods mark in 12th grade again I failed to get good marks. Through these hard days I started to listen to music, every music from pop to rock to blues... Then I gained some interest to play guitar, I bought one acoustic, one frnd shown me some chords I thought I could go on by teaching myself from books and youtube videos. Again I strugled but failed. I bought an electric guitar some days ago after 1 and half years of playing... now I managed to get a teacher he gave me some exercises I work harded alot but whn I played before him he told me im playing not well....Im just frustrated and depressed this is my last dream to do something in music and im failing drastically
i gonna fail every time in my life as this time i got fail in my end semister exams and previously in board exam 4 times in 12classi always think to do new things but i got fail.
Things haven't gotten much better at work. I posted on this website on Feb. 23, if it weren't a family business, I'd have been fired a long time ago, adding, "Heck, I'd fire myself!" At 46, I doubt I'll ever find anything worthwhile, so I'll just put up with what's left of my life. Right now, I'm eating a lot less, not trying to end it all slowly but surely, but I just can't stand certain people I work with, especially the ones who will only point out the negative side of me, but rarely, if ever, the bright side (Yes, such a side, though barely visible, exists). Yes, I'm responsible for my misdeeds, but I pay the price for mine, while the others get away with theirs. In one instance, a superior (In rank, not ethically), when I confronted her with something she refused to act on, only because I wasn't the culprit, made the excuse it was a long time ago. Such people, alas, exist everywhere, but this gal doesn't need a broom to prove she's a witch.I wish each of you the best!Regards,RedsWhittier, CA
Im in Love With A Celebrity I Can Never Be With, And It Absolutely Tears Me Apart To Be Honest, This Is Just Sad. Maybe This Is Why I Don't Have A Boyfriend
Im passing all of my classes, except math, its just so hard and I don't want to fail. Im really about to just hook up with him to get a better score because now it just feels like thats the way to go.Please help me.
I'm actually doing really well .I'm 6.3 and healthy . 26 years old :-) two degrees, wealthy, married, have 6 kids, own two family businesses. I'm doing really well in the stock market, learned to speak a third language. I live out in California In the country side where my kids get the tip of the line education. And i got 8967.65 for my tax refund check I'm going to use it for the next honeymoon.
this is my friends complaint..he's to sad to type himself..."I have loved her unlike anyone i have ever loved before, i knew she was my soulmate. I'm not all that proud to say I stalked her. It started when I was 16, and it still haunts me to this day, i'm 34.she told me he loved someone else, she thought we were only friends, well...@#$! no! she never was intelligent enough to @#%$ing realize that. I once told her, and he turns me the &*%$ down! She says I'm the 'nicest guy she's ever known' but, NO, she still hangs around with Mr. Wonderful. She never cared about me, but i've ALWAYS cared about her. Apparently, i care too #%$&ing much. Sorry for wasting your time, dude. I jjust needed to let it off my chest. *he sighs* Bye, ,man.." then he left.I understand probably THOUSANDS and THOUSANDS, if not MILLIONS of people have suffered this. I can't help them, but the best advice is to LET HER GO. My friend is 34 and is MARRIED for heck's sake! Just forget about her/him and you'l feel better. the pain might not ever go away, but it WILL lessen.
my first and second business failed because of partnership and all my saving money has gone. I cannot support my family and parent.
hi I m a falier in life.........I m 34 unmarried woman. I have a boyfriend who is married and is struggling hard to get divorce since 2004 but allbin vein. we both love each other bit cant marry coz of disgusting indian law which is too slow.. we have been together since 2008 and eagerly waited for never ending court case. now he too has lost hope and seems our life is ruined. I m soon gong undr depression. ...............no hope!!!!
i failed at life because my brain doesn't freaking want to do work and stuff when my body wants to go to bed and my soul wants to watch T.V what da hell should i do?
i am actually not being honest with myself. allow me to just say that i am scared as hell to move out. i have always wanted to move out of my perents house but now i am so worried, on top of it all, i broke up with my boyfriend of four years and i am just scared that moving out will mean that i am alone. I am scared that will not budge well enough, that i will fail to pay rent well enough, that will not do shopping well enough, am very sad. i am moving coz commuting to work has been hard, its a huge risk to move closer to a job am not sure will last as long...am just worried and scared, please advice me if you can.
This may sound silly, but today i got driven in a range rover and i am so disappointed. I thought a range was a cool car that massages you when you get in and sort of has tv screens and stuff, but its just a car...like a prado... i actually think a prado is better. so in my 3rd world country, being seen in a range rover is a big deal, and i just feel like its all vanity...we are conditioned to work so hard for this stuff, only for it to lack meaning when you have it. Anyway, i still hope to own a hybrid electric car, but i hope its not at the cost of who i am. I hope that we will all have it in us to be the best we can be, have the best, but not compromise our humanity.
Thursday, February 27 2014
i'm 26 years old. Never had a girlfriend. I finished my postgrad course 2 and a half years ago and still haven't found any full-time work. I went prematurely bald 5 years ago and am now going gray. So to sum up I am an unemployed, single, bald, greying 26 year old who still lives with his parents! I drink too much alcohol and find it a struggle to keep myself clean and wash my clothes everyday, brush my teeth or go to bed at a reasonable time cos i think 'what's the point?' Most of my friends have respectable starter jobs and some have had multiple girlfriends over the years i've known them. I've been told to go online to get a girlfriend but I want to prove I can get a girlfriend the traditional way and that i am not a social retard. I feel like a child who cannot grow up and is perpetually lost at sea. I want to have motivation to get a girlfriend and get a job but for a few months now it's felt like some fantasy that will never happen. I've only had 3 interviews in the last 2 years and am too shy to ask women out. Basically I'm just a pathetic human being.
Failure. Ok, so at this point in my life 33 it would be safe to say I am a failure. Never had a dream about what my life should be. I only have had one long relationship in my life, and I don't think I could have f*cked it up any worse. Not mistakes, full on regrets. Regrets dont seem to go away. Ever since then I have been single and not even looking for 9 years. Prefer to be alone now. Turn down women, cause I don't want to drag them into my iron grip held baggage.. I was forced into college, and now have a degree I absolutly hate and don't use. Job sucks, constantly getting laid off. Family member rented me a house out of pity and basically forced me into it, I feel like a child. The worst part of all of this is with motivation and letting go of the past I could change my life, but I can't. I see the good things in life, but no longer have any desire to participate in them. I'm not depressed, lonely, or suicidal. Been trying to mentally break myself with deprivation so that i find some form of motivation, but I won't crack. I just really don't give a f*ck. My nieces are really the only things in my life that I enjoy, there not fake or judgmental. A person needs meaningful purpose, and I have failed at giving myself any. Maybe this is when the tough get going. Good luck all.
Believers of God fall into 2 categories. As follows:Those who use it as comfort in life, to lead a better life and to be a good person.And those who use it as a destructive force to do God's will, which is an extreme problem.Solution? Be an atheist. As if God were really real, he would be one cruel, evil, twisted mother f***ker. All you have to do is watch the news to realise that. It's common sense.
i failed in life. i havemade so many mistakes . Done actions that are irreversible. Neither can people forgive me nor can i forgive my self. i cant face my peers. I try to correct all thatwent wrong unfortunately i have done so much wrong that the damamge is already done. i dont even expect the world to pardon me, i want to make friends, be with people, do well in life. but my mistakes a re so grave that they have destroyed my career. I hide myself when i see people. when people ask me the question what are you doing. i have no answer. because the truth is that ive lost everything my career was my most prized possession, i worled so hard . I have been an integral and a meritorious student. i dont expect pity from any one. i dont deserve forgivenss. there was a time when i used to plan my future,love my present, i could consider between options, today im left with a devastated life. i just see the sun rise and the day going down. Inspite me trying hard to get bakc in life, my mistakes take over me and i feel so guilty. The world is moving at such a fast pace. every one is contributing to themselves, to the country and to people around them. I always had plans and intentions to do the same. But I failed miserable. Toyda I am a loss, a liability and disgraceful human. what is the meaning of surviving like this. i cannot be forgiven for my ego and arrogance. i am weak and i have broken the trust of people.
Wednesday, February 26 2014
I am soon turning 25years and I have absolutely nothing to show for it,I was pursuing a music career that saw me depend on my parents for six years..now I later realized music is not the thing for me and I started film,problem is these two industries are so closely related and I have already failed at one I'm afraid al fail in this too. I so badly want financial independence but I'm not sure how I will achieve that,I recently took a short course to boost my skills and hopefully al find some employment..I just feel like av wasted my prime years away...always alone and lonely and really no means of starting a healthy relationship. I'm lost in life.
I've been trying to lose weight for 12 years, but I'm still fat. Diet and exercise programs don't work. Or they work for a while and I give up.I have a boyfriend who doesn't love me. I want a baby but I'm getting too old. 33. I have about five friends total. It's so embarrassing how shy and lonely I am. My job is a job, not a career, it doesn't pay enough, and it's boring. I'm not brave enough to learn how to do anything else. I'm going to get old. Living paycheck to paycheck and being $7000 in credit card debt sucks and there's no way out of it that I can see.
Everyone I know this is a complaint board n everything. Just wanna wish you all good luck in all that you do. Honestly. Feelings and emotions are temporary. And its through our downfalls that make us capable of becoming stronger and rise. Seeing this complaint board we all have difficulties in this world endless problems all sorts to deal with these are just experiances in life you have to make through vent out etc soooo make it a habit of doing something good something spontaneous smile at a stranger help someone with their shopping bags if someone's getting verbally abused step up for the right.make the world a better place? By doing good you automatically feel good :) life is shit but I can tell you man we will get through it eventually. Patience human beings :).lol
Why aren't people nice on here?
I'm 18, I'm about to fail my art course.. Yeah. I failed my maths, I'm currently re-taking my maths and so - that's all I've got cling onto right now to get a decent job really. I'm a bit of a child still, I barely stand on my two feet. I've lost friends and I've lost a perfect guy because I cheated. That's right, my fault and my own damn karma. I guess, it's probably best that all this shit fucks me over now - but I'm going to try, at least. I tried to cut myself to death, but came to the conclusion that was stupid as fuck and it really and deeply affected my family. I don't want to live with my mother all my years, I want to get out, be free.. I hope I don't get stuck here. I'm planning on re-doing that course and get accommodation somewhere else. I'm hoping for the best.. I don't wanna hurt anyone more.
i am 32. unemployed, flat broke, living in a shared room. I have a boyfriend but as his career takes off i sabotage what we have so that he will leave me sooner rather than later. It's not hard. I'm an alcoholic. I black out and do horrible things. I have a strong conscience but it's as though there is something within me that wants to destroy me and everything around me. Constantly at odds with myself, reeling in guilt and shame. I squandered all the talent I once had. When I pick up my paints to redeem myself I realize that I have no skills, it's like a child's art. My youthful beauty is fading. I want to die but I would never hurt those around me with suicide. I haven't been out of bed for 4 days. I attempt to meditate and use positive thinking but it's all empty. I am afraid of what I might do. I don't see it getting better.
I reached the point where I've gone through despair anger, fear, anxiety and now I'm like "EH! DO NOT CARE!" everything has gone to hell. So why don't just sit back and enjoy myself!
Soooooo.. I feel like I should just admit myself in to a phyciatric ward..before I just do something to myself. But I really don't know how that works in england mannnnnnn..born in the stupid country n I don't know jackkkkkk........I dunno mannnn... wanna apply for jobseekers but I don't know how to do that as well. Its funny mannnnnnnnn I'm always the one that cares too much helps tool frikin much. Yet it amazes me...I get nothing in return k then I'm gratefull.Nobody gets this.
While failure happens, few people have done less with so much than I have. My sister, who has inherited a family business, told me I would have been fired a long time ago if it were not a family business. I fully agree. Heck, I'd fire myself! I have had bad experiences with colleagues, and, while they're often my fault, they don't get into hot water when they screw up. Still, their foul-ups do not excuse mine.Also, while I do my best, it isn't very good. I'm slow, I make a glut of mistakes, and I've done this wherever I've gone. At 46, I doubt I'll make anything of my life. As I told my sister, I'm a dead man walking.Nonetheless, I don't believe in suicide, so I'll just grin and bear what remains of life.I hope all of you do better than I've done and probably am going to continue doing, especially since many of you are a far cry from 46 and thus have more time than I have to find what you were put here to do.All the best.RedsWhittier, CA
I'm honestly better off dead.
Tuesday, February 25 2014
How could my life be so unpleasant and be so full of agonising pain, anguish and distress? my life has been nothing but a trial of misery and extreme degradation over the years. right now, am losing hope and my will to live. my life keeps getting worse with each day that passes by. i can't look at anyone anymore without being embarrassed because i have failed my course and i have over stayed in college. i'm suffering the much undesirable humiliation of failure. am not even sure i even have a future right now. am 22 and i don't even have a job, i masterbate, never had a real girl-friend before. most of my so called friends deserted me when i failed, proving people are only drawn to winners. at this age, i don't know how to drive and have never even driven a car before. i don't have one. to my former class mates am just a joke now. i feel lonely and trapped on an isolated tiny island surrounded by an ocean of misery. the only reason am still living is because of my fear of GOD ALMIGHTY, He knows whats best for me.
Im a friken idiot at everything.I'm messed in the headI'm such a idiotic girl.I got sexually abused by 4 people in my life.and one of them is a lady.These images keep messing with my head I'mLoosing it. I failed in that.yep that was my childhood ruined.Got crap GCSE's. Wasn't aloud to go college.Now I'm 23. No money no friends no job.Oh yeah these antidepressants aint shit. I hate myself. Fucked up childhood left me scars which still hurt till now. Thanks life. I love you so much. I'd like to think things will get better. But knowing me I feel like I'm always jinxed. if you have friends, you are lucky.If you have money and a job.you a damn lucky.If you've never been sexually abused.you're a angel. Unlike me I'm a shit magnet. I attract all the shit and bad luck in the word. I hate myself.....my anxiously smiling face which is dying inside is misunderstood for being lazy. I mean have you ever thought that maybe I'm scared.parents man.I've just lost the point to life. Its like that Shakespeare saying init."To be or not to be" I don't care in what he meant. But I mean for myself "hmmm to be dead? Or not to be dead?" Grrrrr EF this.
I fail at life so hard, my whole life is a failure, and today i realized this when i got that grade..............
I literally fail in every way. Fat.Single.Depressed.Mental issues.Practically no friends.Broke as a joke.Insecure.Dumb.Ugly.A well rounded catastrophe at life.
Saturday, February 22 2014
I am FUCKED UP. Fuckity fuck fuck.
Psychiatry always performs illegal and unconstitutionalpsychiatric abuse.
I am a fedorasexual and all I do is LePuppy
Am tired of living with my parents but i do not have money to move out. My mum and i do not talk and whenever she tries to initiate a conversation i cannot help but think that she has not has the most important conversation with me yet, she has failed to tell me the truth about my real father. Who was he, why did he leave me? I heard from an auntie that he died, but i wanna know the whole story...mothers have this thing of lying to their kids that they died.I do not care what they say that parents need not be there for a child to grow up, but, i wish i knew my dad. But i hope to move out, i feel like am sinking back into depression.
Thursday, February 20 2014
Better is one day. Better is one day. Better is one day
I am the most ambitious, string willed prison I know. Not afraid of a little competition...yet everything I do fails. I try so hard to not be broke, to live my dreams. Just moved 3000+ miles from home. Found a great job where I was learning. Had plans on getting a car a really pursuing my dreams. Got fired for no reason. Plans thwarted. Got a call from back home that there's a warrant for my arrest and it can only be fixed if I fly home. I hand l have no money. I'm 31 I'm lonely and as soon as I make some progress I get knocked down 30 steps. I quit. I want to die. No matter what I do it will never get better for me. I just wanted to know what it's like to win. To have God answer my prayers. But I'll never know... Goodbye world
I've tried being mean to girls, I've tried ignoring them, I've tried being romantic & sweet, I've tried spending money beyond my means on them, I've tried being outlandishly bold, sure, I can work the above into a phone # or a makeout session if I'm lucky, but I've never been in love. I've tried lowering my standards, but I can't seem to develop feelings for someone I'm not attracted to. I truly wish I could, most cute girls are either worthless or taken, sometimes both! My situation reminds me of the boys they put in church camps to turn them un-gay. You can't control who you're attracted to. I've been working my whole life to get to the point to be able to get a girl I'm attracted to, but now I'm 32 years old and this most recent failure still hurts. Call me superficial, but who I'm attracted to is out of my control. I've been alone for 10 years, and the one relationship I was in was nothing more than a practice relationship between two horny college students with nothing in common that couldn't find anything better. I've settled before, that's just a small step above being alone. I'd love to say I am passionate about a job, a hobby or making the world a better place, but if I were to fail at any of those, it wouldn't keep me up at night. I'm sick of these girls, I truly wish I could lower these god damn superficial standards of mine.
Have you head the story of a depressed man who tried to feed himself to a tiger and got rejected?Failure is the destiny of some, no matter what they do, they would fail because God hates them. On the other hand, God might have saved him so that he could suffer more depression.
Got a job finally. Hopefully more good things will come...like I dunno, the end of my stress and return of libido. That would be great.Also my teeth are shitty so if I can get a miracle and get enough money to fix that...would be nice.Lastly, I enjoy nothing more than singing and doing arty things, and I'm a guy. So if I can stop getting called gay that would be relieving. Even though I might just be.Fuck I need help. More than I can describe with a few paragraphs. Please.............
I could never get a job, failed at uni, parents think I am a disappoint and constantly put me down, brother thinks its entertaining to call me names, husband won't let me leave the house without him, husband hates my parents and won't let them mind the two babies so I never ever get a break. Husband doesn't let me go to the doctors and get anything for depression, after having second baby had third degree tears after having baby on bathroom floor and now am slightly incontinent. Can't seem to ever loose weight, scream at my eight week old baby and 19 month old even though I love them to bits, feel like I just can't ever be enough for them. Failing at breastfeeding, being a good mother and a good wife. Don't have any friends and never have have no talents either. Can't seem to do anything right ever. I hate living!
The difference between me & all those fresh boys that suppose to be better than me is MONEY. If I have more money I would get a degree (through what ever means necessary).With money, I would date prettier girls, better cars, make my family proud, build a mansion, be above the law.
Wednesday, February 19 2014
I am study in diploma i aw fail in subjects and my frnds
I'm 34 and have had to move back in with my parents as I've had depression/anxiety all my adult life. I've been rendered uneducated (i.e. no college degrees), still so shy and with nagging self-doubt, difficulty in forming relationships, difficulty keeping relationships, no job (I've qualified for the disability support pension) and so on.I wake up every day numbed by antidepressants (numb enough to not want to die), with no real point to my life anymore. I'm gay so I don't have my own family (I've a "partner" who lives overseas) to love. I just bought a Budgie to be my friend.So, the clock keeps ticking. I get older. I remain uneducated with no job prospects (I've only ever done retail), too fearful to get some education, to scared to try anything new (my thought process always stops me from trying to learn anything that could help with a career e.g. You're too old now/ You're ugly/ You can't connect with anyone". So it's just me and my Budgie, Morty. My kind parents, a friend interstate, a quasi-partner overseas and a mind that is still a scared little boy clinging to his mothers dress, and you now, reader, reading this whinge. I hope your life can get better, and I hope you can wish me the same. Love to all you fellow lost souls.
I am an engineering graduate and it has been 9 months still i am jobless.i am not good in communication.i just afraid of facing people and i kept on thinking what they think about me.also now i started avoiding conversation with people in my contact because they ask me what i am doing what are my plans and i don't have any ans.and now i am at home doing nothing.and can not explain my problems to my parents.also we have financial problems. I don’t know what I’m interested in or what my skills are. don't know what to do, how to do and where to start.and i am feeling so alone.
I'm a loser as a mom, wife, daughter, sister and being human. I don't understand why I'm alive, everyone I love leaves me eventually. I've had it.
I cant seem to do anything. I try going to college finally get associate degree cant get job, not a bachelors or no experience. I try to learn to bowl cant seem to do it. No matter where I am nobody listens to what I am saying. They ignore me like I am not there. I cant seem to do anything right. I dont know how to look for the job best for me. I seem to have trouble with everything what is wrong with me?
hey Tryingtoliveagainwe have everything me common. thats my life
I was succesfull in all I had eine in my live and I laugh on everybody who writes his problems on this side. I am a bas person ans I want to say sorry
Tuesday, February 18 2014
What people don't realize is that everyone uses the techniques and tactics of persuasion each day
I am a failure. I failed at be a mother my kids got taken away and lost custod of them FOREVER. I failed at being a wife so i failed my exhusband of 5 years. I failed at going to college several times. I fail at all of my jobs for some reason I just never get it, i never exactly know how to do my job and i am always making several mistakes. I am now currently failing my relationship of two years with my boyfriend because all i do is yell at him but i love him so much i just don't know how to be nice. I am a cold hearted person all i do is b*tch and wine about small crap that don't even matter. Ugh my life is consumed with loathe and bitterness. I just want to be a nice happy person that people love and care about. Problem is i don't know how to do that. I hate that i am so negative and i hate that i fail at everything i set out to do. It's a terrible feeling to know that you have no success, that people really don't enjoy being around (i do have friends but they just don't really enjoy being around me i am always the debbie downer of the party), and knowing yout "best friend" will never love and care for you the way you do her. Ugh i am just so overwhelmed i want to change I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW! The only answer that comes to mind is suicide. I feel like it is the only way out. My boyfriend deserves so much better then me. He is so successfull in life and has never failed at anything he has set out to do, and i mean he really has never failed anything. I JUST WANT HELP!
I WANT TO BE HAPPY..BUT SOMETHING STOPS ME..I WANT TO BE SUCCESSFUL. BUT AGAIN SOMETHING STOPS ME.IS IT MY NEGATIVE PART OF ME STOPPING ME FROM BEING HAPPY..OR IS IT SOMETHING IN MY PAST WHICH IS MAKING ME GUILTY..I CRY EVERYDAY THAT EVERYTHING GUD HAPPEN IN MY LIFE. BUT IT DOES'T HAPPEN THAT WAY.PLS REMEMBER GOD HELP THOSE WHO HELP THEMSELVES.START YOUR LIFE WITH POSITIVE THINKING AND AT NIGHT BEFORE GOING TO SLEEP THANK YOURSELF AND GOD FOR GIVING YOU A LOVELY DAY AND NOT MAKING U FEEL MISERABLE AND DEPRESS.EVERY WORK IN LIFE IS STEPPING STONE FOR GREATER SUCCESS. NEVER FEEL MISERABLE OF ANY WORK U DO. ALWAYS BE HAPPY AND MAKE OTHERS HAPPY AND SPREAD LOVE TO ALL. WE ALL NEED EACH OTHER SUPPORT FOR HAPPY LIVING.
i am not happy with my life, no one understands me....i am upset because i dont make people happy around me and could not fulfill their expectations from me, i am not successful in life i want to get rid of my job and want to do some business but i hv no courage no enough money and no support... everyone discourage me always ,, i cant fulfill my kids dream they r not demanding me but still i feel guilty for that,,, sometime is thought i should die and close the failure chapter ... no one is happy from me.. i weep alone at night and no i hv no hope for my life.... please god help me and give me strength and courage and change my life....
haven't lived up to my expectations. just feel like a loser. don't know what to do I just feel like i'll never make it in anything
I fail at everything. Even when good things happen, I seem to massacre them with my terrible luck and knack for failure.I hate myself.. All I have is God and music, but I still hate myself. Music, God, and hope for some sort of future are the only things that make life worth living.God changed and transformed my life.. I thought I had found the meaning and answer I had been searching for when I found Truth, but somehow I still managed to ruin that too. I hate myself, I want to stop failing and sucking at life. I hate myself.
Saturday, February 15 2014
I can't even successfully write a post on here. fml
I don't have a penny, my internet subscription is remaining 10MB to expire. How would I feed tomorrow? I don't know, but I would just live the house see what happens.
Wednesday, February 12 2014
After struggling to maintain a high GPA for the past six years, I still didn't get acceptances from any colleges. My family's high expectations are beginning to kill me...
fuck my lifei am a boring person, no passion for anything, lazy, no job experience, no skill, social anxiety, unemployment, 31 years old loser, no girlfriend my runaway whenever i want to fuck is cheap hooker because i am broke as fuckfuck my life
I feel like my life is like the walking dead. but instead of the zombies running towards me there all running away from me and im lonely as fck
am the biggest failure here ,but i always do one thing to get me over that..help other people ,it sort a make me feel good and worth something .it makes me think positive at least for the day,and am not doing it just for show ,it feeels good.I am confident that, in the end, common sense and justice will prevail. I'm an optimist, brought up on the belief that if you wait to the end of the story, you get to see the good people live happily ever after.
Ive ran restaurants been in maintenance been a butler managed jewelry stores been a security guard work on a farm had a karaoke business worked at hotel and if its a job ive done it a life shifter i am and now for 20 years have had a little career i call all in one which is be free and do odd jobs. the car and house are in the estate and i may make 20 or 100 a week. i dont know why im here but enjoy the beach and girls and beer by the grill on our land but seem like i like a boat in the ocean with no motor. do i need jesus? i try to do good but have sex needing love and have a great lover and feel guilty. i love the ocean and parties and karaoke and the chase and the thrill of a new woman. i have a few dallars to my name but am rich with freedom but no travel money. im unfulfilled. ive not never been but to a few states. im confused and in a rut. i have a pretty girlfriend that loves me and a nice house with no bills as i get that paid by mother who i help part time on the estate or small farm. im so close to happiness but a little smothered by a lady but im the one always staying with her at night but may need to ease off. maybe its me. i have the key to my chains. but she said she loves me there at night. im not crazy but no one will hire me with 20 years of odd jobs. my lady has a big alomony check and savings. i want to be proud and a respected. im so blessed. the church of christ may be the answer and being a one stop therapist for others an indian guru so to speak or a light to deliver souls into the light. ive studied for this all my life. lord help me
I've been feeling like crap for 5 months strait. I am 29 years old, I spent 9 years obtaining a bachelor's degree on chemistry. I quit my past job to pursuit a better one, but I failed big time. Now I have a "part time" job that demands too much time, and I absolutely have no idea how to do the things they ask me too do, its stressful, I cant sleep, and feel soooo dumb i think I chose the wrong career. honestly I don't now what to do that's why I'm writing here....
Am a guy,25 years old.accomplished nothing.i want to move out of this fking continent.merit does not take you anywere here,you have to know someone, i flopped college.iwant to give it a second shot and start it all over again but cant afford it.the only available work is digging trenches with matocks and there is no future in that.am thinking of moving to the united states and start a fresh, leaving my loser past behind.but its not easy having an african passport restricts people from countries with oportunity.i wish i had a us passport.i wouldnt have to putup with this ball and chain of a country.i have like 300 dollars of savings.it cant get me anywhere.i live in a shack that my parents own.am under pressure by everyone to get a life.i dont have money for college or a job.i had a small business but it failed.am a perpertual failure and have no idea how to break this vicious cycle of poverty. Any advice? Any one?
Fuck the corporate internet!Fuck Public relations and fuck the corporate media!Fuck the government controlled internet!Fuck my life!
whenever my best friend is annoyed with me she posts shitty statuses about me on facebook. she has the passive aggressive habit of not telling me when shes pissed. she demands i buy her cigarettes and food. its usually mcdonalds. i love mcdonalds. but fuck her.she doesn't even ask for the dollar menu.Goodbye cruel world. I hate my best friend.
I plan to neglect the negatives and unlucky.I would only FOCUS on my GOAL even though I know its all vanity, I prefer worldly success to worldly failure and misery.
Tuesday, February 11 2014
were probably the most primitive creatures in existence the lowest of the low all our lives are a big joke the bigger ur problems the bigger the joke keep living for what? so i can piss and sht more? all of ur problems are so petty compared to the truth
6 interviews, no job. 4 years since graduation. Losing faith, hope is becoming a distant memory...I am very close to giving up. I have tried to accept and work with the world in its current state... I still can't do it. I try and try and try. Please world.......give me a break.
i moved to denmark leaving everything behind no one accepted me and i got rejected twice i made a fool of myself countless times because the language is hard i have no friends am also broke i seem to fail at everything that i try but today i tried so hard and got so far but in the end it didn't even matter i thought i was finally getting accepted but i made a wrong move and was cast further out then i imagined
there used to be a light at the end of the tunnel i believed in the paradigm shift i believed that there was a reason for the pain i believed that it was a learning experience that the world would change for the better. i silenced my mind and had faith in the universe i believed in the new age. but now all is lost each moment is intense endless hopeless despair. i cant take it my body can't hold this pain anymore.
Have realized that life is nothing more than a struggle to secure more money and more power. Corporations are nothing more than a means for people to exercise power and money over others in the form of wage slavery. Money and power mean nothing to me, so in the eyes of society and the corporate world, I have failed miserably because I no longer want to play the game.
I am a loser because I thought by now I would be able to inspire my whole generation... I failed. The worst part is I can't even relate with most people my age (27 years old) because my life is an embarrassment. I can't even go to church. Truly, what is the point of living?I feel like crying because I know I have wasted this great opportunity to be alive. Why was I born? I curse the day of my birth.
I just want to die already, like on a warm beach; peacefully in my sleep...
Saturday, February 8 2014
I owe over 100 grand for an MFA from Yale in acting. for the 12 years since i can't seem to get any job besides working in a restaurant. in 2008, my father died. my mother died three months later. a year later, my best friend of 30 years killed herself by running into traffic. i have to wash a shirt in the sink tonight to go and work in a restaurant tomorrow. i am surrounded by friends who are successfully working in television and film. they all feel sorry for me and we laugh at how bad my luck is, year after year after year.
i can't get over the fact that i have wasted 4 years of my life for nothing...i simply can't and i'm failing hard at life at every single level. i'm also unemployed and broke.
I'm 28 years old and I have nothing to live for. I'm unemployed, living on my mom couch, and lost my husband. My credit is dead and since I don't drive it is hard for me to find a job. I failed at being a wife. At my age I should be successful have a family of my own and living the all American Dream or close to it. Dealing with a broken heart and dealing with the cards I have been dealt is killing me. Some days I feel fine and motivated but most days I feel like giving up completely.
I guess this is it... 21 years old and no real life whatsoever. I fail in my studies (again) with horrible marks, have no motivation for anything, no love life (basically nonexistent) while my friends are out having fun with their boyfriends, still live at my parents's home... Tch. What a failure I am, really... Can't stand the fact that I'm forced to live on this awful world in order to keep my family sane and happy... This is my pnly purpose...
Thursday, February 6 2014
I would like to die,I just fail in life,Worthless as a pie,It could be over by a knife...
Why do people use retard as an insult? What if i was mentally retarded? Would you insult a crippled person? It seems that everything i do associated with my seeming lack of wit. If i make noise of any kind; Im getting sick of it. If you have nothing nice to say dont say anything AT ALL
Well first of all i just want to say I've been reading everyone's stories and a lot of them seem to be written by young teens or people in their early twenties. i would love to go back in time and have a talk with my younger self. so just for u guys who say ur life is so bad and u want to die believe me I've been there I've attempted suicide twice. once in my twenties once when i was thirty.i would do anything to have my youth back and make different choices. life is what u make it. i have wasted mine. i will be thirty six next month i am single and have no children. i am miserable and alone. i still fantasize about ending my life almost every day. i am a burden and embarrassment to my family. i am a epileptic and have been since i was ten yrs old i have been on disability since i was twenty one but i have a college degree and have worked a few Jo
Well first of all i just want to say I've been reading everyone's stories and a lot of them seem to be written by young teens or people in their early twenties. i would love to go back in time and have a talk with my younger self. so just for u guys who say ur life is so bad and u want to die believe me I've been there I've attempted suicide twice. once in my twenties once when i was thirty.i would do anything to have my youth back and make different choices. life is what u make it. i have wasted mine. i will be thirty six next month i am single and have no children. i am miserable and alone. i still fantasize about ending my life almost every day. i am a burden and embarrassment to my family. i am a epileptic and have been since i was ten yrs old i have been on disability since i was twenty one but i have a college degree in journalism and have worked a few Job even at my local newspaper for almost five yrs and other various work. i got my first dui in 2009 i was barely over the limit giving a friend a ride home but i knew better. i was arrested paid my fees over time of course and was able to get my license back. four yrs a few jobs later i was going through a bad relationship just caught my boyfriend cheating on me w my best friend so i went to the bar one night and got really drunk. i only lived four blocks away but it might as well have been the moon! I wrecked flipped my car broke my nose in two places fractured my neck two places totaled my car. i now have no life whatsoever i cannot leave my house except to go to the grocery store or doctor apt. i can't get a job without a car or license. the few friends i had seemed to have forgotten about me pretty fast. no one gives a shit. i have sex with myself about twice a week. i can't get to sleep until 5 in the morning. im actually a smart college educated nice person i just want a life again! Im so pissed at everyone else who is married and dating i can't even go out and meet men anymore. i might as well be in prison. next month on my bday i am goin to overdose on hydro and liquor. i just wanna sleep forever cause its the only time i am not miserable. i know i made a mistake that night but i don't deserve this! I would rather be dead than alone.
I fail at life and I'm only fourteen. I can't do anything right and I hate myself. I can't even do my homework I can't concentrate and I know I don't have a future. I want to learn I want to be educated but I feel stupid because I cannot concentrate and I get stressed too easily and start crying and I cry so much I don't know why I'm so sensitive I just don't understand why I'm even here.
I'm 22 years old...and I just found out I spent almost 5 years in community college for nothing, and my application to get into the university of my choice will be rejected. And I still have not told my parents. Also, I still live with my parents, who make it known to everybody was a sad pathetic excuse I am for a daughter. I want to move out, but all my money has been spent paying their bills, and I still do not have a car. And I just got a text from my best friend who just told me my crush asked her out. Well there goes the man that could have been my first boyfriend.
I have found my purpose in life... I would do everything humanly possible to find Tehran cure for Panic Attack. I would please the spirit of social anxiety disorder with peace offering.
It is not easy for a man to ask a woman out (especially if he really loves her or is attracted to her).I would love the next girl that cross my path like. Lonely and love sick.
Listened to that song by Rihanna Featuring 'Future' called loveeeee.Only 10 days to that gloomy day called Valentine. Kaffufule: I need love and affection. Double Kaffufule.
Studied the wrong thing at college and am now working some bullshit part-time job I hate. I am 23 and haven't had a single friend for many, many years. I have never had a girlfriend or had sex of any kind, which for my age is pathetic. I have never moved out of my parents house. I just don't know how to interact with other human beings on any sort of level. I'm miserable everyday and I see no light at the end of this tunnel...
Where did it all go wrong. The only time I'm happy is when I am sleep and away from reality, which isn't for long.
this website has made me eternally sad
Vampire Diaries will not come on Netflix. i don't know what to do with my life.
I am a complete failure! My wife of 26 years doesn't love me and my children hate me. I have no friends nor anyone to talk to. I have no "real job" as has been pointed out to me on several occasions despite the number of university degrees I have earned. I truly believe, I'm destined for hell anyway and since nobody really cares, I thought I'd at least leave someone a note to say why I'm preparing to do I'm about to do here in the next few minutes.
I hate everything about myself. I just want to die. All day, everyday, that's ALL I WANT! I have children (18 and disabled-from 1st marriage and 13 and AMAZINGLY gifted) who need and depend on me. My hubs would b shattered...for life. I know dying is the very most selfish thing I could do, but the feeling in my chest is undeniably strong and growing stronger daily. I cry. Sun up to sun down. Not cry really....more like SOB uncontrollably. I was inpatient for 5 weeks. I need to go back, but we would loose everything bc of the missed income. I am the biggest failure E. V. E. R!I have failed my husband and kids. They worry. They SHOULD NEVER HAVE TO EVEN let my well being cross their beautiful minds. I hate the stress I cause them. It makes me hate myself more and more.....
I turned 50 this year. I have no credit, no children, live in a small 1 bedroom apt and never owned my own home. I failed. Big Time. I never got a second chance at anything, my wife left me 15 years ago. I would have never dreamed of failing this badly.
Wednesday, February 5 2014
I an a failure because I am a chronic paranoid schizophrenic who believes people on here are targeted individuals and I need to be in a psychiatric research institute because my brain is not wired right.
I am a failure. A big failure. Whatever constitutes me is failure.
I wrote something here a few days ago. Today (just for this moment) I feel great. I am currently chilling on a broken down bed with me MP3 on and slightly high.
You ever feel completely invisible in a group of people you're supposed to be comfortable around? Ever always wondered how everyone you know could be so damned happy and content with their life?
No body on the internet really care about my problem... That is why I have to express my sorrows then 'man up', thinks, take responsibility and attack life.I have reach that stage where I feel I can't go any further than this... Death is the only alternative but my soul resent suicide (may be there still an atom of hope left in me), I have to push and encourage myself because no one really cares in this selfish world.
Saturday, February 1 2014
I think i'm a man but i'm a retard. I think i'm cool but i'm weird. I think i'm hot but i'm not. Did i leave anything out? Then its like checkmate. I love you
I care too much about what morons think of me... Thats my problem.
Thursday, January 30 2014
I am a complete failure. I'm 33 and I've accomplished nothing, my credit sucks, I've got 2 dui's on my record (10 years apart), I work in the adult industry, and I have a significant other who is distant most of the time and is no longer interested in any sort of intimacy. I've quit almost every job I've ever had due to a sad mix of irresponsibility and social anxiety. I'm a complete and utter loser.
It has been ten years this year my older brother has passed. Since his demise I have failed at getting motivation in living life. Loosing faith in my religion, I have failed financially by not holding a job for longer than 6 months, I fail at realizing good relationships with woman(I failed to great woman, whom loved me very much Tawnee/Patricia).Failing at life right Now because I lack the ambition that I buried with my brother. I know I have to let go, but we had so much to look forward to as men. Going to Vegas, drinking our first beer at a bar, sharing a girlfriend. These are the moments we talked about for years. Now, being 30 and lacking financial stability, extremely anti-social, and have no ambition to accomplish anything. I hence have given up and fail at life. I miss you brother, Love once only to be taken away for ever.
Still dealing with SAD (social anxiety disorder)... I feel so empty, each year, I resolve to overcome this mental illness and each year I fail. My life has be ruined (I can't go outside because of the inevitable panic attack).
i feel like a failute at life everyone around me hit their spiritual breakthroughs i was alone tgiving and christmas cant shake porn or having real hard time trying dont feel respected at work just feel like a rented mule looked for grace couldnt find any sent out an email to my church brothers telling them all i was overwhelmed by life no one replied no one really gives a damn to reach out and say im praying for u i m 52 and regret being alone and not giveing a few women chances to my heart now im older w health and money issues and scared all time
life started out great being the biggest kid. now 27 i see a different side of life in the eyes of a small broken and weak man. i invested most of my time developing my body in hopes of using it to bring me money but instead it has brought me missery and pain. i still only continue for the sake of others in so maybe i can redeem myself before i go back into the infinite black abyss. in regards to any other aspects of my life you can understand how they slowly dwindle away as i slowly die and wither away
[Sorry for my english, it is not my native language.]It certainly isn't the worst thing that can happen, but... I just got a call from my thesis supervisor, that I should basically calm down, and prepare for not graduating. My work was about programming some experimental stuff. While he said I did very well, my text about it is apparently shit.I am not angry or something. I knew it could be better. I should probably expect, it is more about the bedtime story, than about the actual work. Anyway... who knows, maybe it is better this way.I just don't know how to tell it to my parents. They were paying for everything, and putting so much hope in me. I didn't wanna do this to them... I am gonna hate myself for a long time.
Its time to cycle. Lets get on it, keep grinding those gears. Ive decided to major in chemistry.
I thought of jottin down my problem, but when I entered the site I found it is already filled up with tonnes of em which are even more complicated than mine. So, finally I got a comparision & a consolation that m not only the poor guy out there & m in a lot better state. Thank you all for sharing your problems, it helped me a lot.
I fail at life because I live in Western Psychiatric Institute and Clinic. How am I even online? I don't know?
I just hate when girls think im creepy, other than that everything is going ok.
I'm always tired during the day, everything takes so much effort. My life finally got back to normal, but the stress and anxiety and sheer utter exhaustion kicked in a month ago and hasn't left. I'm no longer suicidal, but my thoughts are passive aggressive on matters of death. I catch myself wishing I would die, but then I keep telling myself it's all going to work out in the end. I also had an epiphany in my class, what the heck am I doing with my life? I know I'm doing okay, but I feel like I've lost my true purpose... my goal. As sad as this is all I want is to find my soulmate. I've had no luck dating the last 2 years. I used to be unbelievably outgoing before, now I'm socially awkward and I hate it. I can't even do class presentations without having a panic or anxiety attack. I also can't stand people touching me, unless it's someone like a family member, but even then I keep my personal bubble. I know I have low self-esteem, I'm trying my best to get over it but I can't bite the bullet. I've had a huge crush on this guy, I want to say something but I really can't approach him. My family is falling apart, I'm growing distant with my friends, I feel so alone. Maybe one day it will end?
Wednesday, January 29 2014
I am 39. I have lived with my parents the last 10 years. All they do is tell me how much I fuck up or will fuck up. I want to leave but don't make enough money. I don't ask girls out cause I live at home. I can't escape this cycle. We live in the middle of no where. Just driving to my shitty job is a job. So much more I could say but I have to try to sleep. I have insomnia and want to die.
NEWS FLASH!!!!Nobody cares.
Everything I do seems to be a waste. I have no self-esteem in my writing, my college education, my job, my love life, even my family. Just hate life and don't see a way out.
Thursday, January 23 2014